Sundown-ing...

有你真好

2011-11-07T19:40:00.001+08:00

我曾说过从朋友到情人这份感情的来不易要好好珍惜如果从情人回到朋友的位置我们必须更珍惜上帝所赐的二次机会分手后的两年我发现如果当初我们都没有相爱的冲动我们会是一对很好很好的朋友因为我发现有你在我身边陪我度过黑暗那是一件美好的事因为你懂我懂我这个朋友的内心说真的有你真好

放手

2011-10-09T11:54:00.001+08:00

放手不是因为不爱你而是必须停止爱你停止所谓的伤心

I know I cant walk away

2011-09-10T22:20:00.001+08:00

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

你

2011-08-21T09:27:00.001+08:00

我遗失了
我觉得最美好的事
好像好的事
都很快结束
离开好像是注定的

安静的离开你
不是因为不爱你
而是
太爱你的
才决定
成就你

letting go

2011-08-21T09:24:00.001+08:00

I guess the hardest thing on Earth is to say goodbye to someone who has become part of your life.

Letting you go maybe a simple task but i know deep down in my heart

Im still harbouring a hope

a hope that likely will not come true

PPMGG

this is what I feel since that day we went apart

looking through the sms exchange

I nv expect this to be coming at all

PPSMGG regardless of what

she still has many many things to share with GG

and she is bottling them out

waiting for the day to share

PP nv hates GG regarding this heartless decision

all she knows is not to make things ugly and difficult for GG to handle

she respects his decision

but she doesnt accept it.

PPLGG………

不

2011-05-31T22:20:00.001+08:00

我放不下走不了离不掉也留不住我喜欢的他

我喜欢你

2011-05-28T14:10:00.001+08:00

我的平静似乎有一点反常但我明白爱情是归属不是拥有我想如果换个方式继续喜欢你对你和我都好Why not?

sighz

2011-03-10T21:28:00.001+08:00

There are so many things we wan to do together but when are we going to do it

我不知道

2011-03-05T17:06:00.001+08:00

有一点点不安有一点点迟疑我的心一点也不安宁对于我们之间

可以给我多一点信心?

2011-01-30T19:50:00.002+08:00

幸福
它好像总是离我好远好远
当手中握有幸福
我的心
总是很不踏实
想好好的握紧它
但又担心会不小心捏碎
心中的害怕
总是会不停的作祟
虽然我明白我是被在乎的
神，
您是否能多给于我对爱多一点点信心

2011-01-15T18:39:00.001+08:00

我很不安
不知道是不是聚少离多的关系
我感到越来越不安

2011-01-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

或许你不明白
有些事
有些话
对我而言
很重要
很重要
我的心
才能更确定

2011-01-11T06:09:00.001+08:00

0609am早晨
静静的听着音乐
静静地看着书
这一刻我特别想你

2011-01-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

不能犹豫
不能怀疑
相信自己
心
是不会说谎

2011-01-08T16:50:00.001+08:00

我比从前幸福。。。。

2010-12-26T17:51:00.001+08:00

如果说我从不在意
我想那是假的
我比你还在意我的过去
对不起

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

2010-12-19T19:59:00.000+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

(",)

2010-12-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

in need to be braver!

因为有你

2010-12-14T12:51:00.002+08:00

想飞的心
好像只有你懂
感谢你让我飞翔
感谢你在原地等我
感谢你了解我的害怕
感谢你的体谅与鼓励
我不知道这次的旅途有什么惊喜
我不再害怕
因为
一切很美只因有你

王心凌-小星星 mv (full version)

2010-12-14T10:19:00.000+08:00

for my Gong Gong.....

现在我很幸福

2010-12-10T06:48:00.003+08:00

有一种淡淡的幸福
简单、
但不多余
它有着细水长流的感觉
慢慢侵蚀着我们的心
柱立起我们在彼此心里的分量
感谢你对我的包容
和你在一起的那瞬间
幸福就开始围绕着我打转
想告诉你
现在我很幸福
幸福是因为你
被你珍惜
被你包容

Happy 1st month anniversary

2010-12-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

4 Dec 2010
An important date to be remembered as yz and i survived through the 1st month of the relationship
Yes, we are in the honeymoon phase but I guess we've been through events which new couple hardly go through.
been away for 2 weeks from each other, heavy topics abt timeline and even past which is mentioned minimally between close friends.
knowing yz for up to coming 2 months has been great. And Im happy to have him around with me at this phase of life. Not too sure how things will go as we are going to be busy still for the next couple of months... I have this little but STRONG faith that we will continue to work things out..

Happy 1st Month Anniversary 耀洲公公
我们要一起加油
很高兴遇见你
:chin chin:

慧欣婆婆

Hermit crab

2010-11-28T11:27:00.005+08:00

Sighz
It seems that I nv learn well
Nv learn frm the past
Nv guard my heart
My heart sank with the words last nite
And indeed I am upset
Very upset...
It seems that things will repeat and I shldnt hv follow my heart
Doing things I feel are right which yet causing distress in others
Feeling lost and ....
All I know my defense mode is up and I'm again hiding in my shelf
And maybe the safe spot that I'm safe frm the environment

=）

2010-11-17T13:45:00.002+08:00

对你，我有无尽透明的思念
对你，我有无比的安心
对你，我不曾怀疑
因为。。。
我相信
我们之间
有着不与伦比的美丽

Love quote...

2010-11-17T13:44:00.001+08:00

"Love is not what we become, but what we already are."

心

2010-11-13T19:22:00.003+08:00

心，耐心地等待
等待着燕子的归来
心，不停的压抑
压抑着那想你的心
没有包袱
没有束缚
想你的心
等你的心
在这静静的等你想你
不能让身在他乡的你担心
因为
我在乎

向日葵

2010-11-07T18:38:00.002+08:00

如果你说我有着向日葵的个性
那。。。
悲伤从不属于向日葵
不管也有多黑
向日葵总是不断的找寻太阳
希望让自己快乐
而且把阳光带给大家
而你
现在是我抬头向往的太阳

2010-11-06T10:46:00.004+08:00

不管距离有多遥远
我们的心
在这一刻
都在心碰心
紧紧地相依
没有任何距离

my heart grow fonder towards you each day

2010-11-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

失去燈火之後不必慌亂，你還可以看見滿天繁星

现在的我
眼前看到了满天繁星
虽然距离有一点远
但
我的心是踏实的
我开始不再害怕、慌张
因为有你在

一定要幸福

2010-10-31T13:37:00.001+08:00

这一次我们一定要幸福
不能让幸福中手中溜走
要好好地紧握幸福
幸福的握住彼此的手
幸福的一起眺望远方
肩并肩不再往后看

这是我对你的约定

傻笑中

2010-10-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

傻笑中
对着你的三围号码傻笑中
对你的回音
我。。好像一直都在傻笑
开始了一连串的等待
开始又对着手机傻笑
你的回音
我在等待

一人两人

2010-10-16T10:30:00.005+08:00

习惯了一个人
一个人逛街
一个人思索
一个人哭泣
现在我想往所谓的两个人
两个人所拥有的独立空间
两个人所拥有的共同空间
两个人的分享
两个人的世界
两个人一起眺望远方
拥有着共同的理想
你愿意成为那所谓的两人吗？

2010-10-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

Going back to work has its pros and cons
at times it can be an engagement
but at certain moments I feel like being a sandwich to the extent of suffering from split personality
time for face off ....

wu yan...

那遠，卻安全。

2010-10-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

我從來都知道失去是怎麼一回事

我只是不喜歡去面對這失去....更何況…」

更何況那段是[曾經]太傷，現在對我來說，那一段，只剩太遠。

遠到像隔了三萬英呎的天空無法擁抱妳的遙遠那樣遠。

遠到像我以為自己還愛妳，卻在聽到消息之後突然了解到那不是愛，

那只是單純的想念而已那樣遠。

遠到像海市蜃樓投影出的搞笑小丑，笑到我心都酸了那樣遠。

那遠，卻安全。

如果，我對妳的愛情是寂寞的話那麼，就讓這寂寞昇華為友情吧

畢竟，從朋友變情人再變回朋友我們，擁有了好美麗的兩次珍貴

My love

2010-09-26T16:53:00.002+08:00

Pictures using my new SLR... graduation gift

In your eyes

无奈

2010-09-06T23:03:00.003+08:00

无奈i guess is the only term i can use to describe how i feel towards events, relationships and things...
looking backward... i started to wonder if what I have done wrong in the past one yr and if that decision was a right one....
looking forward... I realised that i cant handle the change in the relationships between multiple people... and I do feel that they are jus too much for me to handle lately...
doesnt wan to complicate things... i started to be indifference... but that sensitivity of mine... cant help to juz feel upset by those words and things that had happened... it is good to be back as besties are ard... but seem like there are more bad weather casting over me since the very day i was back.... more tears need to be held back... more ways need to be given... yet things are still very tough on me.... no longer that happy as what i appeared to be.. no longer that easy as i thought... if life is like a river.... im in the rapids and it is a rough journey...

juz a strange feeling

2010-08-15T20:45:00.003+08:00

juz feeling a bit strange...
have a gd news to share
but seems like no one out there can understand how i feel
i have come so far
work so hard but
the joy that i have experienced seems...so lonely...
juz becoz i went thru this route on my own?
juz becoz they dont understand?
this joy doesnt seem to be shared by others...
maybe it doesnt have that thing called 共鸣
at least this is what i believe...

To that special someone whom I wanna share the joy with (dont know when you will read n know it)
I did well for my Master...
gotten a distinction for that 1 yr of hard work
are you proud of me?
I hope I did you proud...
and did prove to you that life goes well without u

2010-07-09T18:43:00.000+08:00

对不起，
我不会爱

祝你幸福、快乐

随笔：幸福影子

2010-07-04T02:11:00.001+08:00

曾经爱过的两个人

会在彼此的灵魂中留下印记

就算感情淡了

那些生命中一起走过的片段

那些回忆

都会十分珍贵

毕竟我们曾有一次幸福的机会

一起逆着风飞翔

追寻心中的那个花园

似乎要拥有爱的完美

可惜我们都沒好好把握

只能继续伪装坚强洒脱

抱着遗憾努力地向前走

默默地庆幸能被所爱的人深深爱过

2010-06-05T16:31:00.000+08:00

Out of the sudden
I realise Im a pretty prideful one...
prideful in a way that no one will notice...
someone who wants to strive
someone who wants to be recognised
someone who wants to win or outshine others
in a relationship, I might sacrifice alot or put down myself low...
but i guess ultimately I want to win in the relationship...
Someone once said that I was borned to be a leader...
who can look at things in a macro and micro perspectives
but am i really that capable?
I really wonder
maybe deep in my heart
I juz wan to win
win the battle
and win others
but to be honest
I guess things have changed as I'm the only enemy of myself..
not others

Jia you Summersnow

2010-06-04T18:22:00.002+08:00

把头抬高
让眼泪往后流
就能够不让眼泪落下
可是我做不到，也办不到
眼泪，它不停地流
不断地流
停不了
止不住

2010-06-04T12:58:00.001+08:00

有人说，放了手就要学习祝福
但为何，心总在隐隐作痛

2010-06-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

当初的伤心
是因为
不被你认同
是因为
被你误解
所谓的信任
所谓的依赖
那些定义
一夜被你打翻
原来
我你相信的
好不同

而我最在乎的，
是你从来都不相信我
相信我们

2010-04-05T18:11:00.001+08:00

细雨绵绵的四月
我这才发现
我一起在默默地吊唁那已逝去的爱情

2010-03-01T12:56:00.002+08:00

如果说一个谎
能隐瞒一切
不再成为那所谓的负担
别人能因此解脱
快乐
why not
最起码
他们会是快乐、幸福的

2010-02-11T09:53:00.002+08:00

an unforeseen stress happened to arise ytd
things that nv come across my mind happened
I started to wonder about the relationship between people
the simple trust in others
and how naive i can be
always believe in goodness in others
nv realise that every single movement made...
you're being judged
judged for the motives behind
and being labeled as 不简单
i still hope for the good in people
i wanted to be hopeful
and i cant live in the world without trust..
it seems scary
我需要防人，还是别人防我

2010-01-31T14:13:00.002+08:00

I really hope that everyone will be fine n happy...
they deserve those happiness...
If I could hv the abilities... I hope I can give them my happiness as well...
I hope i can do my part in bringing them those happiness... despite.. sacrificing mine...

2010-01-26T11:46:00.001+08:00

原来我伤了自己
也伤了别人
sorry...

勇敢

2010-01-22T15:24:00.001+08:00

你说我勇敢
我不以为然
因为那是个假像
一个伪装
一个不能放任自己的理由
其实我并不勇敢
只是我选择了
对自己
对他人负责
不管路有多不平坦
不管我有多害怕、多孤单
即使多想放任自己好好的大哭一场
我都要hold住
很努力的做个勇敢的人
最起码
不能让别人看到心中的恐惧
我不能输

2010-01-16T12:59:00.002+08:00

我很想飞
想飞到世界的另一端
尝试那一万个可能
寻找那千万个奇迹
没有束缚
没有包袱
就那么简单
或许绕了地球一圈
我依然拥有你右手边的位子
或许绕了地球一圈
我们都有各自的天空

2010-01-15T14:52:00.001+08:00

sense the stress
feel the stress
touch the stress..
this is how stressful i am..
arghz...

2010-01-11T14:15:00.002+08:00

"曾经爱过的两个人
会在彼此的灵魂中留下印记
以后就算感情淡了
那些生命中一起走过的片段
那些回忆
也都会十分珍贵的"

我想过去的已经回不去了
或许当初那些不理智的举动
永远得不到谅解
或许
我们的缘分。。。做朋友的缘分
只有仅仅的几年
我和你早在当初
变成两条平行线
你已经是那个我不熟悉的陌生人

2009-12-21T09:47:00.001+08:00

am i being too harsh? or did i misunderstand again....?

2009-12-11T09:58:00.002+08:00

had a good talk with davynn last night...
strangely the advice given was the same with others
but at least... i feel it is not that 刺耳 as compared to those who bring up the similiar contents..
at least a choice is given to me to choose... informed consent
pro and cons being evaluated... and experiences being shared...
yes everyone is right... I need to heal... i shld be taking time to heal...no rush...
the damage is there... but it shldnt be forever there....
and I'm not ready to embark into another relationship...
at least getting myself ready...
although the process was self destructive but at least get the reconstruction right...
I choose to believe wat i believed in...
and i choose to live the way i wan it to be....

2009-12-10T11:58:00.001+08:00

心中的那场雨
好像从没停过
像向日葵的心境
何时才会出现

2009-12-10T11:51:00.001+08:00

人与人的距离并不可怕
心的距离才是可怕的
我和你有了心的距离
好陌生的感觉

生命中的流星

2009-12-01T17:21:00.001+08:00

不知为何
我突然想起那些在我生命中划过的流星
那么的耀眼。。。那么令人想念。。。
也让我看到了很多

我记得奶奶是在我四岁时离开
对她的记忆有一点点模糊
但我记得那天在医院的画面
她让我看见了和爷爷之间的甜蜜
爷爷曾经有过的笑容
也让我看见了失去她后，爷爷的寂寞与孤独
我可以感觉到爷爷是很爱奶奶的
因为奶奶的离去
爷爷开始不远行，只因奶奶生前没那么多机会旅游。

婆婆是在我JC2 那年走的
她的离去对我来说是一种震撼。。。
也留下了生命中的第一个遗憾
因为那天学校排练到很晚
我没履行每天探望她的承诺
没想到她就在隔天凌晨离开
来不及的告别，让我在学校哭了一整天
吓坏了班导和同学
婆婆一生过得有一点艰辛
她让我看到了旧时代女人的认命
看到了嫁错郎的坎坷
一个母亲对儿子的溺爱
人性的丑陋
我怀念小时候，
在睡前我们三姐妹教她英文的画面
吃着我最爱的糖水
如今，没有人会煮我爱的糖水
也没有所谓的三姐妹。。。因为有些人已是陌生人了

在我的印象中，我的生日很多时候都在围炉
因为四叔很喜欢吃火锅。。。而我和他的生日之差2天
他的离去从一开始对我而言是一个为什么
莫名其妙的在元宵入院
莫名其妙的得了血癌
莫名其妙的败战
我永远记得那天他不愿入加护的反应
他让我看到了
勇士的英勇
做人应有的韧性和规划
兄弟之间的齐心
小孩所显露的“孝”
还有好多好多。。。。

不知为何。。。
今天的我好想你们。。。
谢谢你
我生命中的流星

2009-11-24T16:55:00.001+08:00

不知这么了
突然回忆起
那年在异乡的那份悸动
２００８年５月１９日凌晨
好真实的感觉

2009-11-24T10:28:00.003+08:00

想问你
你快乐吗？
我真的只想知道你是否快乐。。。
离开你以后
我希望你会过得很快乐
但你的眼神现在多了一份忧郁
多了很多思绪
想问你
你快乐吗？

2009-11-23T14:12:00.001+08:00

说好了。。我们要好好维持这个平衡点
谁都不能破环。。。
我们是一辈子的好朋友

2009-11-22T10:38:00.002+08:00

很多时候，我倔强。。。任性
但我不勇敢
比起别人
我少了很多勇气
我想是因为没信心
所以我少了勇气
其实我不比任何人差
为何童年的阴影
总是挥之不去

“勇气不是天生的
是一点一滴累积的”

加油慧欣！！

2009-11-21T14:11:00.001+08:00

每一场恋爱，都是一支只适合双人跳的舞曲。当其中有一个人喊停的时候，就无法继续。不管其中一方喊停的时间是什么时候，也不管喊停的理由对方能不能接受，两个人都只能同时放手。。。“停”此刻，一个人的口令，变成两人的动作。各自回到人生的座位前，不妨鞠躬说声：“谢谢！”，是风度，也是祝福。--吴若权

对不起
我忘了放手
谢谢你的包容
祝福你

原来根本没有所谓的曾经

2009-11-19T13:27:00.002+08:00

离开你之后，我才发现
人真的是个很矛盾的动物
如果一直觉得答案是这样
就会不断地说服自己
曾经我把你当成是我的终点
所以我很难放手
现在我知道你是我的过客
就会得容易多了
也许我在下一个路口
就会遇到了我的终点也说不定

宋允浩

2009-11-18T13:53:00.002+08:00

海芋的美
海芋的娇艳
海芋的高贵
不是每个人可以欣赏的

2009-11-17T10:02:00.002+08:00

我想我习惯了一个人
一个人的生活
一个人的世界
自由
没有牵挂
期待一个人的旅行
在开始的地方
画上最后的句点
回到两条没有交际的平行线
其实一个人也不错嘛。。。

2009-11-13T14:24:00.002+08:00

冬天好像来了。。。
今天好冷好冷
手脚都好冰
我的心也觉得好冷
不管喝任何热饮
心都感觉不到一点温暖
我要勇敢一点
手冰了。。不需要另一只手来给于温暖
放进自己的口袋，也可以暖暖的

我知道
我明了
有些人
只是人生的一个过客
而我
在努力地让伤口痊愈
我不想因为孤单而伤害任何人
不想把别人的真心当垃圾
而我
是值得被真心对待

ps 我全都相信你说的每一句

2009-11-12T00:28:00.003+08:00

cant help to feel disappointed today..
very disappointed in fact..
what to do..
juz let things flow bah..
i choose not to do anything abt it

2009-11-10T11:11:00.001+08:00

我不喜欢偷偷摸摸。。。
我们的关系难道不能摊在阳光底下
做朋友需要那么辛苦吗？

my fav song to end my day

2009-11-09T00:46:00.001+08:00

2009-11-09T00:11:00.001+08:00

不管有多不放心。。。
也要压着那不安的心
因为这件事与我无关
我不能总是拿着热脸去碰冷屁股
我是有尊严的

LIfe in HK

2009-11-08T18:27:00.000+08:00

It has been 2.5 months since I move over
Life has been okay so far except for the past few days when I was down with high fever.
I enjoy sitting in my living room,
observing the changing colours of the sky during evening time
looking at the nightview of the Hong Kong Island in the middle of the night with a cup of drink in my hands and daze off..
in those sleepless nights, i will lie on the sofa and stare at the lovely nightview till I fall asleep.
I also enjoy going to the neighbourhood every weekend of do my groceries.. and get my bubble tea
it is interesting to move around the neighbourhood and discover new things..
people crowding around The Jockey Club.. with an earpiece on their ears during racing days..
during the change of season, there will be good sale over shoes n clothes..
even the things sold in many shops change as well...
my favourite bubble tea shop started to launch a Winter series of warm beverages...
Supermarket started to sell the ingredients for steamboats and those preserved meat
resturants launching steamboat menu and foodstalls started to sell claypot series of food....
on streets, u will get to see hawkers selling roasted chestnuts and sweet potatoes.. which u dont get to see in summer...
there are so many things I dont want to miss
I'm looking forward to observe new changes in my living environment..
at the same time yearn to go out more to explore as well...
another 7 more weeks.. i will be able to do so with my LX3.. may be an SLR to roam ard Hong Kong

praying hard

2009-11-03T18:10:00.003+08:00

lets hope that the recurrent enlarged lymph nodes are due to infection...
I guess Sis has the same worries like me... but juz didnt verbalise out last night...
with the frequent headache and fatigue plus pain over joints I'm having
I guess she is worried about the chances of leukemia since we have a family history on it...
there is nothing much i can do now but just to rest well so that my fever will come down before the blood tests...
i have a lot of things on my hands... deadlines are coming... but there is nothing I can do..
rest well, sleep well... lets pray for the better... jus hope that we are only scaring ourselves ...

来来来

2009-10-30T01:11:00.003+08:00

in the midst of the assignment deadlines...
i am glad to hear smthg +ve frm U...
oh mine...
getting a bit exciting abt the news that u given me...
and i cant sleep bcoz of it...
oh mine...
i know it is not finalised yet..
but i simply cant help but to get excited abt it..
U coming over to visit ME!!! MEＭＥ！！
n eat the curry yu dan...
haha..
now u have became my motivation for my assignment...
pls pls..
be gd be nice..
hope the trip will be finalised....
i really cant wait to see ya ...
=)

2009-10-19T09:06:00.002+08:00

突然发现已经过了半年
而我也迷迷糊糊过而半年
或许过去对我是一种遗憾
但不能再自艾自怨了
因为不能再错过了
不能错过我想珍惜的人
我的朋友，我的家人
想好好握着手上的幸福
今天的世界仿佛在为我微笑着！！ =）
加油！！！

2009-10-07T20:37:00.001+08:00

想试着去爱
却有点胆怯
心还在隐隐作痛
我还能爱吗？

2009-10-07T13:10:00.002+08:00

我想。。。
我是幸福的
因为有你在
每当我慌乱的时候
你总是为我打气
牵着我的手
陪我走出那黑暗冰冷的世界
你问候
你的鼓励
总让我觉得暖暖的
好温暖
有你在
我渐渐的不再害怕
不再害怕
一个人的感觉
谢谢你

2009-09-27T13:20:00.001+08:00

曾经听过一句话：“失去燈火之後不必慌亂，你還可以看見滿天繁星”。。。
要加油！！！
因为當你跌落谷底時，別灰心，至少接下來你每跨出的一步都是向上的。。 =）
i'm learning too..

2009-09-26T15:17:00.002+08:00

如果我有一个愿望
我希望我周遭朋友都幸福、快乐
不要再被情所伤。。。。

如果我有这个能力就好了。。。。
幸福快点来找他们

2009-09-25T21:56:00.001+08:00

我不开心。。。。
那又怎样？
日子还是一天天的过
时间不会因为你不开心而停止转动。。。

2009-09-25T01:30:00.001+08:00

坦白面對自己的感受，不是一件丟臉的事

2009-09-23T11:11:00.002+08:00

我想回到的当初的那个我。。。
简简单单拥有着那快乐
如果没有那些种种的事
我或许不会成长
但最起码。。。
我是快乐的
无忧的
不必伪装
来证明我很好。。。
我好累。。。

2009-09-13T12:56:00.002+08:00

thank you for calling to check on me today...
I know you are very concern about me being alone overseas... and my health...
I need to admit that I'm touched by your act of kindness...
But I need to apologise if I have hurt you too...
You said that I can lean onto you at times of need...
and you are upset for not being there for me previously... and you want to make up for it...
but is there a need to make up?
I dont think so...
It is just a phase of life to me.. and I need to learn it well...
and it is just not the right time for us to talk about anything....
I need a little peace.. and I hope you can understand....

2009-09-12T01:41:00.001+08:00

2009-09-09T02:46:00.000+08:00

你曾有过心痛的感觉吗？
心被勒著。。。
无法跳动。。。
闷闷的左胸好像有一个洞
整个人空空的。。。
没有感觉
没有知觉
只想躲在一个角落
把那个痛释放出来
把那个门好好关上。。。

想家

2009-09-06T22:13:00.002+08:00

不知为何
今天的我特别想家
在gym 听到像一般新加坡人的谈话
感觉好亲切。。。
好像问他们是否是新加坡人。。。

2009-09-06T21:36:00.001+08:00

something i looked at every night... reflecting reflecting....

emo-ing

2009-09-06T01:10:00.002+08:00

0110hr at hong kong...
my 1st wkend at my apartment...
have a stack of notes lying on my desk but i yet to have the motivation to read them...
meeting my prof next week.. but i yet to read the things he asked me too...
i need to admit... my mind is not with me...
i cant focus...
i watched 4 movies in a row since evening...
staring at the nightview in front of me
chose to wash my clothes which i bought ytd
had a glass of warm milk...
but i juz cant sleep..
my mind is wandering ard...
flashbacks keep haunting me for the whole day...
everything seems to be a nightmare...
even though i'm back at home...
i know i need to let go the past...
forgive myself...
but the more i tried, the more flashbacks and emotions hit...
why can i forgive him for the things he done... even though he had hurt me to the max... but not myself...
i need to get going....

2009-08-28T23:55:00.004+08:00

“我已经相信有些人我永远不必等
。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰
我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了”

我真的不等了！！
也不想等了
因为不想再被你伤了
我想好好过我的人生。。。
没有你的人生。。。

2009-08-21T12:41:00.002+08:00

moving closer to the departure date...
i'm experiencing more and more emotions...
I even have this silly idea or imagination that things will be better with wc ard...
maybe subconsciously i hope he is still ard with me... guide me... support me...
but i'm clear that it is just a wishful thinking... something that will nv happen...
more flashbacks these days when I'm preparing the trip...
i'm quite envious that LipChin's bf is so supportive towards this study trip...
i know that wc will be that supportive if he is still my bf...
doing a Masters.. maintaining a long distance relationship are something both of us had talked abt and painted together. In fact, he used to be one of the reasons why i hope to do my Masters so that this qualification made it easier for me to find a job in overseas when he needs to work elsewhere... well, these were wat we painted previously... and i seriously understand that he is no longer the reason for me to work so hard for that Masters....他不是我的甜蜜负担了

I need to be very clear why I'm doing this Masters... It is an opportunity that comes along after the breakup... and I decided to seize it... but what is the ultimate goal i'm looking at? i dont know... it is my first time not knowing what i want in life... not that goal oriented as usual... I dont know what I want... just hoping that things will get clear as things go... i hope i sincerely hope so..

mi.,,

2009-08-21T01:23:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

2009-08-20T09:15:00.002+08:00

20 August... 2 more days to departure...
feeling very 无奈
心有一点点痛的感觉
我好想得到你的拥抱与祝福离去
我想这只是想想而已。。。。

2009-08-18T22:28:00.001+08:00

我必须好好的沉淀自己的情绪
我不能再依赖
不能再期待

fear...

2009-08-14T00:37:00.002+08:00

8 more days..
honestly speaking i'm not really mentally prepared...
i know i have to go.. a choice i have made..
but dont too sure if i'm ready to go..
i know i'm a lucky babe to gotten the scholarship
have been psycho-ing myself to go..
but wonder if it really helps..
well i need a lot of courages to be out alone..
need a lot of blessings frm you...
well i guess the bridge will be straightened.. once my feet are at the departure gates..
shant look back..
i cross my heart...

一个人就好

2009-08-03T23:24:00.003+08:00

你有没有过一样的心情
明明很痛
明明很想两个人
却只能一个人
在倔强之后
在寂寞之前
擦掉眼泪
告诉自己
一个人就好。。。。

一个人就好
作词/作曲：徐旻铃编曲：郑楠
演唱：刘力扬

街挤满了欢笑
太不适合眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好
爱说退就退潮
我松开手回忆却没放掉
未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好
一个人就好
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

有人说我对大家不坦白
其实我何尝对自己坦白过。。。
从爱情退潮的那一刻
我试着松开手
但回忆却没放掉
而曾有的承诺变成一种嘲笑

我开始害怕寂寞
害怕无人的转角
努力的挤满欢笑
但当初的笑容已不再
眼泪不时来凑热闹
我开始自己擦掉眼泪
因为我明白
地球继续绕
而曾经憧憬的未来
不会来。。。
而我。。。
一个人过就很好

2009-08-02T15:06:00.000+08:00

有人捡到我的勇敢跟坚强？？

2009-08-01T10:40:00.002+08:00

我不喜欢离别。。。

Cherish

2009-07-29T23:10:00.001+08:00

Cherish. (Author: Unknown @ Absolutely Poetry)

Cherish things while you still have them,
before they're gone,
and you realize how precious they really are.
Life can only be understood backwards,
but it must be lived forwards.

Everything in life is temporary.
So if things are going well,
enjoy it because it won't last forever.
And if things are going badly,
don't worry because that won't last forever either.

Destiny is not a matter of chance,
it is a matter of choice;
it is not a thing to be waited for,
it is a thing to be achieved.

2009-07-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

"Note the emotion and move on. Emotions never last...it just recurs and go away.. sometimes shorter, sometimes longer but never quite the same and always intangible. So no point dwelling on for too long. Be connected to emotions but try not to be dictated by it for too long."

Something for me to learn.. to grow..

一辈子

2009-07-28T19:24:00.003+08:00

我想和你一辈子
一辈子的躺在你的胸怀
一辈子的依赖着你
一辈子的听你的唠叨
一辈子等你醒来
想简简单单的过和你的一辈子
因为我相信一辈子的存在
一辈子的爱。。。。

2009-07-28T09:33:00.000+08:00

我想等你。。。
一直等下去
心中的位置
一直为你保留
。。。。
我等你