秘密

在我朋友面前我是一个没有自己秘密的人
我喜欢向朋友坦白
但因为某些原因我知道某人的秘密
一个让我心痛的秘密
一个让窒息的秘密
一个具有杀伤力的秘密
这个秘密我并没有告诉认识他的人
因为我知道它的严重性
但这个秘密所负有的重量让我有了压力
我选择了逃避
逃避面对秘密
逃避面对这个过去
对不起我已无法背负着承重的秘密
所以我早已选择了离去

在爱情的路上
每个人都需要作出个选择
感情变淡了， 牵手或放手？
爱情变稀薄， 幸福或祝福？
在爱情的转角
每个人都要面对前方的景物
不管选择是对，是错
我们都要学习面对

Kapo

sometimes i wonder whether i shld poke my fingers regrading others' personal issues.. i do feel that i said too much but shld i say i care too much.. i juz want my friends to be hurt to a certain extent... i've been thru that phase n i dun wan to friends to follow that footsteps.i feel hurt to see their relationships do not go in the correct ways...

I'm workacholic..

I think I'm mad.. serious!! I'm still at my workplace mugging for my assignment till i decided to give up to refine my search question.. who on earth will stay till so late to do the work in the office.. I'm crazy indeed..!! I need rest le.. coz i'm speaking rubbish now!!

Retrospective entry

Finally I had my very own weekend after burning 3 consecutive weekends due to conference, work, inservice and school.. Though this weekend I'm still doing my assignment.. which tried to accomplish a bit but failed.. but at least I manage to do something I like and they are less stressful.. hmm.. what did i done? well i finally manage to meet up with WC on friday for dinner & crap a bit plus watched "Ratatouille". And also met up with Aud, and Geri for coffee and nua-ing in the cafe on sat nitez.. how i wish everyday will be like these.. wat a wishing thinking i had.. well there was a common thing happened for the both nite which was i took the last train back home.. fierce rite.. haha (lame)

The following are some recent events that i was "involved":

1) Raj's Farewell (17 Aug)

Occupational Therapy Team 1


2) Singapore Fireworks Festival (17 Aug)

Always like this nightview of Singapore from the bay...





wow!! my fav. Fireworks..

Wencong & I




3) Rheumatology Workshop @ Conrad (24-26 Aug)

Having the morning tea with my workmates


The only thing I enjoyed during the conference was the food.. and dining area.. ambience was good.. classy.. but a bit stressful when facing at the cutlery..

Function Room for dinner is at the poolside

This is the poolside restroom..

4) Interdept Captain Ball Match (5 & 7 Sept)
Energizer

Da Ge Hong Yun & me...

Tired look.. Lip Chin, Joanna & me!

Mr Adam Keith & me...

David & me...

Victory smile.. moving into the quarter finals

Go Go GO!!!



5) Hong Yun's Farewell (7 Sept)


What's so secretive?

So engrossed in reading

Yeah.. Specially designed farewell gift...

Recent look of me...

特别的位置

每个人这辈子
心中都有过这么一个特别的朋友
可能相爱过， 也可能喜欢着彼此
但是， 却为了什么原因而没能在一起
很矛盾的行为
一开始
你不甘心只是做朋友的
但久了
突然发现
这样最好
宁愿这样默默地关心
总好过在一起而有天会分手

珍惜

有一种感觉叫珍惜
这是一种奇妙的感觉
一种令人感到幸福的感觉
被在乎的感觉
不管结果如何
最重要的是
当下这个人感觉到珍惜

遗忘

如果可以的话, 我希望能忘记过去
以全新的姿态认识你
或许一切会简单多了

Things will not be the same

Today it might seem to be a normal usual Monday, but i guess everyone do feel the same as how i feel, juz that no one do vocalise it. The team is quieter now, and 10AB gym too.. no more lame jokes, no more baby photos and Hp discussions, and my nagging voices... things will not be the same anymore, unless this is wat i felt... i need to admit that i miss that chap. he is not only the colleague, but also a mentor, brother and friend. i like to depend on him when i'm at workplace. he is also my SOS in time of crisis. all these made his departure difficult for me...

i'm glad that he likes that movie clip that i've prepared for him... at least his appreciation made it worthwhile for me sleeping at 4am in the morning in order to complete the gift.

i hope that he is fine at rehab, enjoying his work and continue to make a difference in his patients. plus taking good care of those patients who were previously under my care. 大哥加油！！

A girl.. who simply loves the speed...

When i was young i was kind of different from the girls of same age.. i dont like playing with barbie dolls or masa masa.. playing hide and seek; and catching were always on the top of my priorities... i enjoy running not as in slow jog but it's the hard core spriting... i like the "dash" feeling during the run and also the wind blowing onto my face... And, also i always like to speed up when running downward slope to enjoy the "extra" bit of speed.. not only that it actually allows me to keep my mind off from other things and focus during that few seconds of dashing... and it is a way for me to vent my anger too... i hope i can continue to run like the past.. but i really doubt so based on the recent incidents..

i started to feel the pain on the medial side of my right knee since Apr/May... i thought it was a muscle strain coz i felt it a few times during my track and field training when i was in Sec4, and the dr believed so too... but the pain din go off for weeks... and my physio friend felt that it seems to be a muscle imbalance issue becoz of my gaits. i subsequently went for a running assessment to look at my weight distribution on feet and the results were i tend to over pronate during my run. and a pair of control shoes and knee support were invested. and the pain did went off gradually.. however recently the pain came back when i increased the intensity of sports in a week, and aching pain increases when i redistributed all my weight onto my right for more than 1 min. in addition there seems to be an increase in trip and almost fall incidence rates over the past 1 month. multiple falls occurred during the past 2 days of captain balls and these falls werent mostly caused by collisions. i still remembered that there was one moment when i jumped for the ball, sudden weakness was felt on my right leg, and i fell when i landed. yesterday when i was running from novena square trying to catch up with my teammates after lunch, i had a sense of 力不从心. i found it difficult to do my striding as weakness set in. things worsened during the evening games, despite i wanted to play at least a full half game. my knee basically gave way when i was running and there was a moment that i limp. all the bruises were found on my right leg. a few of my physio friends had asked me not to continue to play, and one of them did explain the consequences if anything happened--- might not be able to do any sports in the future if it is really a ligament issue not balance. i did ponder abt this issue for a while but i decided to continue to play last night as it holds an extra meaning...
it might be rare to see the 3 guys from my dept playing together in the future. 我真得很想最后一次和他们一起拼命。。。 and i did view it as my last game before i consult the dr and get the final verdict. but unfortunately i din get to play much as they were worried that i will further injure myself if i continue to fall.

aching pain is still constantly felt and it increases when i walk more than 10min... planning to see a dr soon.. but fearful of the findings.. maybe ignorance is a blessing.. and i wan to continue to run..

愛情是靠努力的, 如果一切都講運氣, 愛情還有甚麼好感人的?

有种美丽，叫放弃 （‘淘汰’后记）

感激上天让我与你相遇与你别离
生命给了我们无尽的悲哀， 也给来我们永远的答案
于是，安然一份放弃， 固守一份超脱
不管未来的生活如何变迁
不管个人的选择方式如何
跟不管握在手中的东西如何
我们虽逃避也勇敢， 虽欣慰也伤感
我们像往常一样，往生活的深处走去
我们像往常一样， 在逐步放弃
却有着逐步决定

淘汰

淘汰 is one of the songs that I came across when watching one of the Taiwan variety shows.. and it manages to touch me.. There are 2 versions of this song.. personally i prefer Eason's version as i like the way he handled the emotions of the songs..

Eason's version



Jay Chou's Version


如果你愿意再次相信
相信我是爱你的
我会奋不顾身
把幸福都给你
就算
有风也有雨
也要给你
阳光洒满地