迷失。明白

我想我迷路了
迷失在心中的国度里
我以为你会牵住我的手
陪着我度过
但我从没想过
你的温柔与体贴
却是我迷失的原因
我从没有想过逃离
一直紧握仅有的温柔
以为这一切会有转机
却发现我没有优先权
在你心中我不是最重要的
因为我不会依赖着你
不想因依赖而成为了你的负担
不想你看到你因负担而变成沉重
如果这样会让你快乐一点
我会保持着这不平稳的天枰
因为我明白我不是你的未来
也知道我能自己走出这迷宫
现在的我看开了。。。
我只想珍惜我所拥有的一切包括你这个朋友

NOT ME

I feel that I'm like a deflated balloon now... floating around aimless.. fustrated on little things which i cant help it.. i may not have the courage to cont anymore.. despite how much i care.. as far as i know for this point of time.. i'm exhausted totally.. i'm not the ME that i'm used to be.. i hate the way i am now.. and i know that i'm losing the courage to cont wat i wan to...

My head is spinning

Feeling Gong Gong seems to be an indication of insufficient rest for me.. i thought i was fine after the trip despite the weather was a bit on the cold side... i looked back for the past few days since back home.. i realised that i nv really manage to have a good night sleep.. quality sleep was disturbed by my thoughts and worries, and also dreams.. dreaming of losing someone impt though i struggling to hold onto.. standing at the cliff crying non stop... felt a sense of heartaching when looking at someone drifting away/ apart from me... are all these omens of losing.. or juz that i need a sense of security... seems that i'm not in control of my life... maybe WC is rite in a right.. staying away instead of totally drawn towards may be a better solution to my problem now..

qutoes from 夏雪

“遇到一个爱你的人需要很多的运气，

找到一个你爱的人需要很多努力，

运气是不可求的，

而努力却是可以付出的，

找到一个你爱的人已经很不容易，

还去要求他是不是也爱你就更困难了，

如果遇不到爱你的人那就找一个你爱的人，

这样幸福就简单多了。”

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“每个人心中都有一些遗憾

有时甜、 有时苦

甜的是美美的回忆

苦的却是只有回忆”

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“错过的永远最美，最美的永远错过。

因为错过所以你发现她的好，

然后花了很多时间和精力去重新寻找，

想要弥补那个遗憾，

在这个过程中他在你的心中的份量会越来越重，

到最后错过的就变成最美的、最爱的

也因为这样所以最爱的永远都会错过。

而人总是在追求心中一种遗憾

却忽略自己身边所拥有的东西

如果停下来就会发现其实自己拥有的已经够多了”

Hokkaido

Greetings from Hokkaido.. finally found a free internet access in the hotel. the hotel that lodge in today is built in the middle of the forest and buildings are found among trees with indoor links...cool rite.. haha
Today is my DAY 3 in Hokkaido. so far so gd.. enjoy my life over here.. but i`m still coping with the weather which is totally unpredictable.. it was a rainy day when i first arrived and freezing cold in the evening which my jacket failed to keep me warm.. well i was glad that the weather is gd today.. sunny but yet windy as well.. gd weather for me to see the lavender [ will post up the photos when i`m back]. food was average for the buffet BUT sashimi and the desserts plus choco were gd,,,yet to try the Melon which hokkaido is famous for.. still considering to buy or not coz it`s very expensive approximately more than 1600 Yen(SG 20)...
ok i gtg le.. need to catch my beauty sleep.. hope things are fine in SG....

cHANGI AirPort

Guess where am i now? sighz.. at gate D41 awaiting to be board to JAL 710 final destination to Narita.. sometime it is quite sad to travel with my parents. had to be force to enter the age early to avoid the crowd although i have not shop sufficiently in the transit mall.. T_T but anyway i juz taken a Gelare waffle for my dinner..but it was very filling as my irritating dad ate half of it.. :S ok i shall bear with his childish act for the next 6days
6hrs of night flight now i started to worry whether i will be able to sleep on board or not.. and i still need to travel for another 1 hr to japan domestic airport to take another flight to Hokkaido.. wat a long journey. approximated arrival time to hokkaido will be ard noon..sigh 12 hrs of traveling. i hope that the service from Japan Airlines will be good as it is my 1st time taking Japan Airlines and Japanese are very particulate on their services.. crossing my fingers hard:)
Ok i gtg le... time limit is up soon.. more update if i manage to get network at the rural areas of hokkaido
Sayorana

其实还爱你

其实还爱你by 阿沁
have been seriously crazy abt this song for months le..
dunnoe why i'm so crazy abt it..

finally it's time for hokkaido

Finally I've finishing packing my bag. it took me an entire day, was super ineffective and unmotivated... i guess i was too tired after working on my project till late night on Thurs. it seems to be a busy week for me. met the Ying, aud and Liting for dinner on tues, and watched harry pottter with gretel and rae... plus busy doing my handover and program proposal. i have finished all the necessary for my work but i still felt a bit unsettled.. Going to Hokkaido is a trip that i was looking forward and i thought i will be excited abt it as well.. A trip that i will unwind myself and learn to let go alot of things.. but i noe i will be missing someone. Sighz.. i noe all these shld be erased off in order for me to enjoy my trip.. but 我无法放他一个人。 i know things are hard for him lately, and i have tried my best to help within my limits.. i dunnoe how is he going to settle all things by himself, and i will not be there to provide a listening ear. Am i juz worried or feeling guilty for not able to help.. maybe i shld have burden msyelf with all these..我是人不是神。。。

4 more hours before i board the plane.. i need to get excited.!!!!

真正可怜的人
就是以为失去一样东西
就到了世界末日
如果你愿意去看的话
你知不知道你拥有的还有很多
只是你不愿意去看而已。。。。

“朵馨”

[石头剪刀布]

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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放逐。自由

突然有想去流浪的冲动
想放逐自己到处流浪
或许流浪能感受自由
被封锁的心也能从而得到解脱