moving closer to the departure date...
i'm experiencing more and more emotions...
I even have this silly idea or imagination that things will be better with wc ard...
maybe subconsciously i hope he is still ard with me... guide me... support me...
but i'm clear that it is just a wishful thinking... something that will nv happen...
more flashbacks these days when I'm preparing the trip...
i'm quite envious that LipChin's bf is so supportive towards this study trip...
i know that wc will be that supportive if he is still my bf...
doing a Masters.. maintaining a long distance relationship are something both of us had talked abt and painted together. In fact, he used to be one of the reasons why i hope to do my Masters so that this qualification made it easier for me to find a job in overseas when he needs to work elsewhere... well, these were wat we painted previously... and i seriously understand that he is no longer the reason for me to work so hard for that Masters....他不是我的甜蜜负担了
I need to be very clear why I'm doing this Masters... It is an opportunity that comes along after the breakup... and I decided to seize it... but what is the ultimate goal i'm looking at? i dont know... it is my first time not knowing what i want in life... not that goal oriented as usual... I dont know what I want... just hoping that things will get clear as things go... i hope i sincerely hope so..
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