Saturday, June 30, 2007

Calla Lily

I used to like white flowers without any particular reason. White Lily seems to be my fav since secondary days coz they appeared to be quite elegant. However Calla Lily has secured a major position in my heart recently partly because they look gentle and delicate in appearance...








佛焰苞花意

或初露,或微放,或盛開,海芋有『佛焰苞花』獨樹一格多變的花形,一朵朵亭亭的立於晴空之下,清麗的姿態,隨著螺旋狀的花瓣捲入花心,說著一種海芋獨有的典雅氣質。

海芋物語
海芋別稱水芋、蕃海芋、野芋、馬蹄蓮。外型簡單而清純,尤其是純白色的海芋就和百合一樣給人有一種清麗脫俗的感覺,所以在英文裡,是以尼羅河百合來稱呼她,在日本則稱她為荷蘭海芋。

海芋象徵著誠實,與良好的同伴關係,很適合用在朋友之間,與幸福婚禮的場合。
問花花不語
花語的頻率與正常的心跳相同。可以數,可以聽,不要問,為什麼。
花語:雄壯之美、潔淨
花形簡單大方的海芋,擁有時髦的魅力,無論和哪一種花搭配,都蓋不住它那獨特且清雅的氣質,也因此而擁有「雄壯之美」和「清秀挺拔」等花語。
清新脫俗、純白可人的海芋,總是靜悄悄地給人們帶來一陣清涼,尤其是在暑氣漸漸逼人的初夏裡,欣賞一下它的清姿,即使再浮燥的心情也會平靜許多。
不同的顏色有不同的意義,分別是: 種類. 花語含意. 白色. 象徵青春活力、氣質高雅. 黃色. 象徵純潔、志同道合. 紅色. 象徵對對方有好感

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Happy 23rd Birthday!!!

Today I've eaten my 4th Birthday cake and now I'm older 1yr and 1 day.. Out of the sudden I felt that I am so fortunate as I am being loved by so many ppl... in fact i guess i've been "celebrating" my birthday for the entire Jun ad i guess it will continue to drag till July. Gotten my 1st brithday prezzie from Jessy n co ealier this mth, next a surprise from my lovely Physio-mates during our lunch date, followed by a surprise "party" by my sis n bro-in-law

well sometimes i really 身在福中不知福, frankly speaking i was feeling autistic the night before my birthday. wanted to hibernate so i chose to cancel my dinner date with my sisters gang in JC.. hoping to spend the night alone by myself.. but in the end i regretted for doing so.. lame rite.. :(. the night was actually spent with Tiong n Wencong who were being kind enough to meet me despite being super broke. Nothing special had happened on this day but juz that 有一点遗憾didnt manage to fulfil my 22nd birthday wish. T_T

Anyway, i wan to thank all of the friends and my family for all those surprises and well wishes... i noe i'm being blessed..unless i'm happy and contented...i'm glad to be remembered during my birthday.. And, also special thanks to the Physio ortho n part of CP team who gave me a LOUD birthday song early in the morning in the office.. hey guys u really made my day man!!!Q

good bye 22, happy 23 is here..:)



Wow its a MANGo cake...


making a wish seriously.. wat's up in my mind?


hmm.. yummy cake here i come..





acting cute in front of the durian cake which my sis hates most.. haha

Sunday, June 24, 2007

谢谢你让我爱过你

感觉天气冷了
就加件毛衣
而不是急着躲进
某个人的怀里
这么简单的常识
我竟然忘记
直到你离去
才恢复记忆
还可以呼吸
心跳也还规律
只除了寂寞
它还不肯马上就平息
相恋和失恋
如果说都需要练习
一次学会两种也算好事情
谢谢你教会我爱需要两颗心
谢谢你示范了什么人该放弃
谢谢你提醒我痛会唤醒勇气
谢谢你曾让我这样的
爱过你
只要睁开眼睛
就有好风景
再不用苦苦等你
偶尔的好心情
这种简单的快乐
比玫瑰美丽
我相信伤心
会慢慢痊愈


自从认识你,我的喜怒哀乐都跟你沾上边
因为喜欢你,我学会了勇敢地面对好朋友的身份
谢谢你放开我的手, 你的坦白让我勇敢也让我学习放手
此时此刻的我不再会为了你而情绪化
因为我已正视我们的朋友关系
22岁的我曾经是如此向往爱情
但现在的我不再了
你的出现让我从新的认清自己
找到了曾经那么有规划, 那么了解自己所要的我
谢谢你让我爱过你
谢谢你没有把我给推开
谢谢你让我看见了自己
我想我已痊愈了

Quak quak quak..

Today I've have received my 6th MC for the year plus lost my voice for the 2nd time since 2003. Well i din mean having a husky voice but basically it is hard for me to produce a note that can be heard.. was msging Rose this afternoon that the anti-cough herbal tea didn't do its miracle on me.. sobz. however having a second thought, i think i did cause it to happen.. in another word serve me right..
Retrospective data as followed:

I woke up on a Friday morning with a terrible sore throat, instead of seeing a dr, i taken the Ah-Ma traditional method: gurgling of salt water. Had minimal fluid intake during working hrs and straining my vocal cord when talking to the patients with hearing impairment. Attended a gathering after work, and agreed to go to KTV after dinner. Sang a few F.I.R and Jolin songs. Did attempt to strict my self from singing too much and left an hr early before the session.
Went to work on the very next day complaining of insufficient sleep and minimal fluid intake as well... attempted to have a nap over my sis's place while waiting for her hse-warming to start but failed...was screaming at my cousins who kept disturbing and pulling my leg. And also, talking loudly "arguing" to my uncle regarding issues I totally disagreed with. next I had some satays, chicken wings and nuggets to fil up my empty stomach, and had my fav Hoegarden. Last but not least taken a slice of durain cake as a finale...
Woke up this morning wanted to plan my Sunday outing with my mum... And I realised that oh well...i cant produce a beautiful note which i used to.. it's hard for me to make a conversation as well..since 11am I've tried not to pick up any calls coz i'm temporarily mute... 6that's so freaking irritating@@#%$^$
I've taken a MC for tmr but i'm still crossing my fingers hard... hoping my vocal cord will recover for my work.. if not it will be the 6th MC used...it will not be nice to be absent so frequently...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

i'm tired

it seems that there are a lot of things in my mind which have been blocking my mental processing... i'm starting to think slower and respond super+++ slow.. am i deteriorating? sometime i wish that i have selective memory loss.. maybe i can be happier when i forget certain things.. at least being sadness that moment and happier for a longer period of time (seems quite a gd idea)i wish i could be happier..but i seems unable to let go things...

Sunday, June 17, 2007

new look...


Finally i've settled all the things i need to..
I know it has been almost a yr since i blogged..
Was a bit lazy and tied up by my work.. (i know it's an excuse)
frankly speaking i do have a hard time recalling my username and password
was quite shocked to see that blogspot become so chin-na
anyway getting afresh.. a new look to my blog again..
i hope this time my blogging habit will get better...(crossing my fingers hard)
Some updates for those whom i haven seen for ages
sorry to disappoint those who think that i managed to "fish" a doctor as my bf
well, i'm still single and available.. (will con't to try harder.. hahha)
something new is that i have enrolled to La Trobe offshore deg conversion course.. a/w for my offer letter...
n i shall play hard before Sept comes...

more updates on me soon..oyah plus my tagboard too.
need to turn off the lights soon..
Winnie the Pooh here i come, zzzzzzzz

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Departing

well i think it is sad to noe that those you are familiar working with going off soon.. just had a lunch date with the HO whom i meet on work. a bunch of funny Dr who love to crack stupid and funny jokes and c/o when they are on call or post call. well this lunch makes me realised a thing which i think it is pretty important.. it is time for me to improve on all the medical terminology in order to communicate well with them (ha ha). besides that, need to prepare for their departures soon as they are on a rotation based to other departments or Hospital every 4mths.. sad to know that coz i'm so used to them around me at work.. crapping with me and making fun of my name.. who will have the gut to call me Xu Huixin after they left.
Still remember how Laura and me become friends... well she was the first HO to approach me for my name...how i always make fun of Dr Koh HL with his childish behaviour... plus Dr Wong ST's ID pass..
well 6 more weeks to go.. cherish it..

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

First time

(Assume you are a girl if you are a boy)

It's your first time. As you lie back your

muscles tighten. You put him

off for a while searching for an excuse, but he

;refuses to be swayed as he

approaches you. He asks if you're afraid and you

shake your head bravely.

He has had more experience, but it's the first

time his finger has found

the right place. He probes deeply and you shiver;

your body tenses; but

he's gentle like he promised he'd be. He looks

deeply within your eyes

and tells you to trust him - he's done this many

times before. His cool

smile relaxes you and you open wider to give him

;more room for an easy

entrance.You begin to plead and beg him to hurry,

but he slowly takes his

time, wanting to cause you as little pain as

possible. As he presses

;closer, going deeper, you feel the tissue give

way; pain surges throughout

your body and you feel the slight trickle of

blood as he continues. He

looks at you concerned and asks you if it's too

painful.Your eyes are

filled with tears but you shake your head and nod

for him to go on. He

begins going in and out with skill but you are

now too numb to feel him

within you. After a few moments, you feel

something bursting within you and

he pulls it out of you, you lay panting, glad to

have it over. He looks

at you and smiling warmly, tells you, with a

chuckle; that you have been

his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience.

You smile and thank your

dentist. After all,it was your first time to have

a tooth pulled.

Naughty, Naughty!

What were you thinkin' ?

PERVERT

I know what you were thinking!

precious moments

i think i have missed the most precious moments in my life.. friendships...
lost quite a bit.. juz a lonely soul currently.. guess it is due to my up down mood that i dunnoe how to get along well with ppl??? dunnoe.. well i guess i can meet those hi bye firends only.. ha ha.. ironic rite.. so well well well.. juz enjoying being alone.. all alone and one alone..

Sunday, June 11, 2006

it juz a false act

a big hug to me which i think i deserved it..
an applaud for myself for putting up such a gd show..
all the laughter and jokes that i cracked for the past week..
i really need to start to admire myself..
again i'm gg back to self in 2002
but now i'm facing it all by myself...
my closest friends are not ard with me... coz they din noe..
others think i'm fine.. yes i'm fine when i'm in a crowd
am i really fine with i'm in the crowd.. the feeling that i asked xuanhong previously was there [a sense of loneliness even though with company]
what my analysis is right... i nv let others to really enter my inner world...
am i really fine??? no i NOT... i need time... i need time to hide.. i need time to let to embrace the remaining things i have.. i need time to bury what i've lost..
i need some silent moments pls stop asking me are you alright when you are 100% ready to be with me...

Friday, May 19, 2006

01S3B

it had been a long time since i had met this group of lovely and funny people.. had last met some during the past CNY over at cy's place and some during our sentosa trip post Xmas.. but i juz wan to say again.. i still love these people although we are not that punctual in our meeting.

actually this evening i was telling my sis that i was quite sadz that i would be on time for this gathering coz we are not famous for punctuality..but surprisingly cy and zy were early and the rest of them were only 10 to 15 min late esp weilin (most of the time we late for more than half hr). i even told cy that we can made a move 1st as i think weilin will be late for 1/2hr which i was right (bingo!! bingo!!). [previously he had learnt a lesson frm the sentosa trip we had in dec which he was 5 min late but still need to wait for ppl up to an hr, :)].

well i really need to comment this guy.. he also had a very brillant idea and gut regarding certain things.. do you noe how he make his $$ worthwhile for a buffet? he actually suggest throwing all the rice into a hidden plastic bag in order to eat and eat the raw stuffs, and he did do it (only his table).that is y this table can tkae the longest time to eat. veri dai zhong isnt it?

as for my table a grp of gd children, rayner was sharing with us where to get GOOD japanese buffet and his Japan trip. then we moved on to discuss abt some French guys that Weiying, Michele and Ah joo met during their attachment.. ha ha.. funny expression seen in rayner when we are discussing it..

then after i finished "filling" up my stomach, i moved to another table to find my poker kakeys.. i actually surprised fc and jiaming when i shown them my poer cards.. oh boy dun ask me y i bring a deck along.. have learnt my lesson well with them.. we are juz a crazy bunch of Bridging people.. love playing bridge with them even when it was quite obvious that their skills in building a bridge had gone down.. but it's still fun.. ha.:). enjoyed the sessions when we kept misleading each other, guessing who is partner and also finding scapegoat to commit suicide when the cards were quite bad.. it was very fun.. and i often suffered from aspiration when i laughed and drank at the same time, and also almost choked to death when eating my watermelon due to the stupid comment that fengchen made..but it was fun..

Although we din move on for further activity after dinner as most ppl need to work to earn $$ despite Jinying kept asking us to go to her hse to play taboo. it was still lovely to see everyone.. need to emphasize to 01S3B, although the frequency of our meeting had gone down (unfortunately) due to our busy and tight schedules... let's try to maintain such frequency ok.. Shiyun and i dun think that it's a gd as we might deteriorate and end up not seeing each other 4ever.. dun let this happen ok? :)

Need to thank cy for organising it and also Sakae sushi that $40 voucher that we die die need to use before end of this mth.. looking forward for our movie treat.. Da vinci code, Xmen 3.. and more to come..

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

serious posting

pardon me frm being serious and scary for the previosu post..
i juz need to vent my anger.,
anyway juz came back frm redang few days ago..
will blog that soon..
7 more days to work.. arghz..

Monday, May 15, 2006

beware..

Beware of strangers is something that i have learnt since young..
My mum also emphasized to me regarding this.. coz she always thinks that i've "soft ears"
i understood her intentions and i've learnt...
i've learnt to guard strangers
but there's something i nv learnt well despite of repeated mistakes..
which is i nv learnt to guard those people whom i noe..
true.. that is me who may appear like a kiwi.. but willing to share and help..
but it does not mean that what i share with u esp my worries u can use a loudhailer and spread to others...
mind you.. i trust u that's y i share.. there is no pt for u to misread and blow it up.. it's my worries not urs..
things seems to get worsen u noe...
yes.. i think i understand le..
i will try to watch my words and nt to be truthful at all times...
betrayal will...~!@#$%^&*~

Friday, March 17, 2006

drop dead

still dun understand why Mr lim HB wants to have a triple jump for reduced energy.. really kill all my brain cells.. i'm so tired.. wel well well going to take a nap soon.. muz be able to tahan later to watch westside story at 1.30am.. (well again my backgrd music is not doing well again) arghz

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

new bloggie

seriously i think my bloggie and tagboard are being underutilised. ha all thanks to her lovely master..
wonder whether u guys like abt my background music.. yes it's SUMMER SNOW, theme song from the Japanese drama-- Summer Snow (Xia Zhi Xue) filmed in yr 2000. i wonder whether anyone has the impression on this drama..
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Summer 1951....

the first Japanese submarine the "kuroshio" took its first dive off the Straits of Tsugaru.....

when the searchlight shone out from the window into the darkness of the sea...

tiny particles that were like cotton balls were seen....

it was recorded that it was as if it were snow......



I want to see it once....

thousands of meters deep under the sea....

the pure white Summer Snow....
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A love story between a young man who has been forced to grow up too quickly, and a young woman with an ailment that has placed restrictions on her life. Natsuo (Domoto Tsuyoshi) has been looking after his younger brother and sister since the death of their parents. He has also been running the family bicycle shop. Yuki (Hirosue Ryoko) becomes the only person in the world in whom he can confide. For Yuki, Natsuo becomes the catalyst that has her trying to break out of her cocoon.
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well, i think i'm not only having the crave for the OST but oso the drama.. OMG..
haiz..hope u all will like the backgrd music.. though it's a bit incomplete. it's the best i can find.. will be uploading all songs that i like fortnightly to share

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

my oTS

got pretty upset today as i couldn't find the cd i wan.. had been to all the possible stores to look for it but juz no stock.. shall i order frm HMV but i was told that it's $67.. i was so shocked when i heard the price.. i dun understand y it's so expensive when Overtime, Long vacation, and pride OST only cost under $30 at HMV.. more than double the price.. WTH.. wondering if i try ordering from gramaphone, will it be cheaper? shall chk it out again.. oh ya.. haven been to tower records to look for it..
dun ask me why i wan the CD.. coz i juz have the crave for it!!

new look new start

ha.. finally finsih revamping my blog.. nice? i hope so! have spent the entire morning doing it and choosing my blogskin. well at first i want to use 5566 blogskin but i'm jzu afraid that i will give u guys a scare.. ha.

it's so nice not hvaing sch.. i shall continue to nua...

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Summer Snow..

It's Summer Snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch, but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that's crying for you

If there were something not to change forever
We could feel it deep in our heart
Today is over with a million tears
Still everyone has a wish to live

Oh, I do belive everlasting love
And destiny to meet you again
I feel a pain I can hardly stand
All I can do is loving you

It's Summer Snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch, but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that's crying for you

Saturday, February 25, 2006

拥抱

每个人在这世界上都是孤独个体
我们矛盾总是在计算对方
却又渴望互相取暖
我们不停的说话
以为是在沟通
其实
千言万语比不上一个拥抱

arghz II

well as you guys can see i'm not a frequent blogger... 36 posts in total since i started 18 mths ago.. that's too little rite.. something i do have a lot of things to write but juz that i dunnoe how to pen down. but i do enjoy posting a lot of Chi-na thingy( either i wrote or i read frm somewhere). if you are able to understand them u might be able to noe wat i'm thinking and experiencing.

recently there are a lot of personal and family matters happening around me... as much i wish to pen down.. there are risks in it.. significant others might read it.. arghs.. out of the sudden i realised that i'm a loner in fact. alot of emotional and psychosocial aspects are "running" in me and i do want to "vomit" them out but there isn't an avenue. yes i may seem to have a lot of friends.. but in times of trouble there isnt anyone that i can find and talk with... everyone seems to be so preoccupied with their work and relationships.. i may appear to be a weirdo in crowd.. the siao one who only can be a comedian... the unreasonable one who is extremely picky and fussy in her fyp... but it doesnt mean i'm ok

pls dun rely on me too much.. i'm not a superwoman. pls dun look for me only when u are in need... relationships are not an one-way thingy.. it shld be mutual my dear..

a listening ear and emotional support are all i need now..