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Got a bit teary recently..
often i will 含着泪睡着
i dun really know what actually bother me exactly...
but i do know that i'm affected by some small little changes observe on the facebook..
i start to wonder why
or shld i say that i need to learn to really acknowledge..
i'm stuck in a way
may be have sank in other way..


找不到方向望彩虹天堂

呼吸的痛

想念是会呼吸的痛
因为我不能继续呆在你身边
不能陪你嬉闹
因为离开是为了让我成长
是为了让你解脱

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
因为我输给了你和她过去
输给了起跑点
因为我不能给你她所能给的快乐
不能想被这过去捆住


我们好像只能背对背而已

潘裕文 潘王子 Peter Pan

Recently I am addicted to taiwanese variety show:超级星光大道
and, also i am addicted to one of the contestants--- 潘裕文！！！
soothing voice he has, 温暖， 能安抚人的歌声！！
潘王子！！！

潘裕文 林志炫--離人


潘裕文-旋木


潘裕文--走了嗎

珍惜

你的抽屉里面
一定藏了很多你珍惜的东西
只是已经放得太久
久的连你自己都忘记了
巧克力如果不吃
会被蚂蚁吃掉
身边的人如果不珍惜的话
也是会消失的


from Angel Lover

change of perception...

In order to continue to adapt
one needs to learn to change his/ her beliefs and values systems
i'm learning to do so..
trying hard to move out..

有人讓我明白在乎一個人的感受，讓我明白為在乎的人努力，是不求回報也會快樂的，
我想為我在乎的人繼續努力。

爱情转移

I was struck by a sentence in the lyrics of 爱情转移

“感情需要人接班 接近换来期望 期望带来失望的恶性循环”

Is this really a vicious cycle? I'm trying to understand.. shld i say i dont understand.. It is true that high hope may result in disappointment however hope give us a direction to move on...

If i need to respond to this line，i will say:

“我愿意为你的爱情接班， 但你愿意吗？
不要再期望什么
而是努力经营原有的一切
你的失望不再是一个人的负担
因为我愿意和你分担”

依赖

我想依赖你，可以吗？
我想和你分享我的喜怒哀乐，你愿意吗？
如果依赖成了习惯， 我希望你不要放开你的手
请让我继续地依赖你
我想一直躲在你的怀里，
依偎着你
一直感受到你的呵护
你是否愿意？

Abandonment

"abandon yourself to this new day
abandon yourself to what might be new for you today
abandon yourself to what may come, and let go of what you wish were true.
Keeping your hand clenched on the past doesn't let you accept anything new
abandon yourself and open your hand to see what new might come"

This is a quote from a journal article which i recently read for the schoolwork which i find it meaningful.
We need learn to let go the past and let things slowly heal by themselves. It is good for us to reminisce the past, but there is a limit. Holding onto the past doesnt allow you to change anything from the past. The past will continue to haunt you if you dont let go. It will continue to tear the scar apart and cause more pain in you. I've learnt to let go, have you?

dreaming of you

I've dreamt of you last night
A sweet and bitter dream to me
I wonder you have tasted it
Wonder you have the same dream as mine
but I'm certain that your dream doesnt cast me as the main role
maybe a supporting role which I may not appreciate
I'm certain that my dream will not turn to reality
And, I'm certain that it's just a dream
A dream that reminded me to surrender to the reality
A dream that made me tear when I woke up
I will support your decision
I hope that it's a right one
I hope the best for you
but I still hope to keep you in my dream

喜欢。习惯

喜欢与习惯
常常只有一线的距离
当感情转淡了
喜欢或许已变成了习惯
但难以察觉
因为每个人常常会把这两个感觉混淆
而听不见真真的感觉

喜欢一个人是发指内心的一种真真的感觉
而习惯某个人像是一种毒瘾，一种依赖
戒也戒不掉， 而迷失的自己
蒙蔽的真心

随笔 for FIR 需要你的爱

我看见了你的贴心与用心
你是否看见了我的真心与耐心
我在等待
一直在等待
等待你听见自己心里的话的那一天

I love my job...

Whenever I started to feel that I'm losing my grip, there will be something that reaffirm my values and beliefs. I need to admit that as a healthcare professional, we need to be emotionally strong and learn to empathize others. Enablement and empowerment are the key things that we should ultimately pass on to our patients. I always feel that I've not been doing enough for my patients and my passion in my work was shaken by certain events happened. Yesterday, my patient wrote a card for me.

"I wan to tell you "Thank You"
But it doesn't seem enough.
Words don't seem sufficient.
I appreciate your kindness
more than words can say.
You're special because
you seemed to always make my day
with your cheerfulness and laughter.
Really appreicate everything you had done.
Words can say so little when someone had done so much."


This message may mean nothing to others, but it means a lot to me. It rekindles my passion as a therapist, reaffirms my beliefs in my care. To me, a patient is not just a patient, but also a mentor in my life experience.

向日葵

悲伤从不属于向日葵
不管也有多黑
向日葵总是不断的找寻太阳
希望让自己快乐
而且把阳光带给大家

是非题

down 2

I think everyone is thinking that i'm feeling better. but the truth is I'm not.. getting a bit teary and worried with my partial tear in knee ligament which the dr wan to treat it conservatively to see whether there is any improvement with intramuscular injection, if not a scope with a KIV operatin may be needed. this means that i might not be a inpatient therapist anymore. the injection was very painful that my entire body was tensed up. post jab was also a misery because i cant flex my knee well and i feel more pain... i have a urge to call but i'm juz a nobody...Seems like i having bad luck.. i think i need to get an amulet for myself too..

down...1

out of the sudden, i feel like telling someone a lot of things: my feelings towards the person, and the incident and my views. but i have chosen to stop myself from doing so. I'm feeling very uncertain towards wat has been happening among/ between/ to us. I'm hesitated to the truth, and i'm holding myself back. I dont have the courage to say wat i intend to. ALl i can do is stayed extremely calm listening to the narration of the recent events, although i am not! I'm not giving any stress to anyone but towards myself.

秘密

在我朋友面前我是一个没有自己秘密的人
我喜欢向朋友坦白
但因为某些原因我知道某人的秘密
一个让我心痛的秘密
一个让窒息的秘密
一个具有杀伤力的秘密
这个秘密我并没有告诉认识他的人
因为我知道它的严重性
但这个秘密所负有的重量让我有了压力
我选择了逃避
逃避面对秘密
逃避面对这个过去
对不起我已无法背负着承重的秘密
所以我早已选择了离去

在爱情的路上
每个人都需要作出个选择
感情变淡了， 牵手或放手？
爱情变稀薄， 幸福或祝福？
在爱情的转角
每个人都要面对前方的景物
不管选择是对，是错
我们都要学习面对

Kapo

sometimes i wonder whether i shld poke my fingers regrading others' personal issues.. i do feel that i said too much but shld i say i care too much.. i juz want my friends to be hurt to a certain extent... i've been thru that phase n i dun wan to friends to follow that footsteps.i feel hurt to see their relationships do not go in the correct ways...