新谣

Watching S-pop concert brings me a lot of memories that were previously forgotten...
There are a lot of emotions attached to the songs presented...
Although these songs do not belong to my era, I came to know that when I was organising the 新谣节when i was in JC2...
I remember I had a hard time researching on the songs, composer, original singers and backgrounds of the songs,and I was doing alone.... Of course the toughest parts were to select the songs.
If i din remember wrongly this is the songlist that was presented on that day:
- 细水长流
- 邂逅
- 说时以旧
- 你的倒影
- 恋之憩
- 你是我的唯一
- 让夜轻轻落下
- 我们这一班


*i sang this osng with Zhengzhong*




I wonder when will i have the chance to sing these songs with the group that I had that day...

yucky gastristis...

erm.. i think my gastristis started to miss me again..
so i supposed it is coming to re-visit me...
sighz.. nausea and vommitting have became parts and parcels of my life recently...
and there is always a constant stirring feeling in my stomach... yuck..
severe stomachache has waken me from my lovely dreams leaving me fully wake for the rest of the night suffering from the pain...
I have been refraining myself from eating things that i like...
y did it continue to progress.. sighz..
now i guess i just need to have a fever so that i can be diagnosed as gastristis or gastroentristis...

sighz.. i think my nightmare is approaching again...

bye bye good days..

Sakamoto Ryuichi - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence

我以为

我在想你

我以為
想念是因為不習慣
習慣了就不再想念
為何我在想念你呢?
在遠方的你, 過的安好嗎?
是否能感應到我對你的思念...
我好想你!

恋空 Sky of Love

Today I finally found time to catch the jap movie, Sky of love (恋空) which I was so keen to watch when i saw the movie poster. Well it is a typical jap romance story but I do think that it was well-filmed. Other than 心愿 and 夏之雪, 恋空is the recent movie that made me cried... plus a long lasting heartache.

Trailer (long version)


Movie Trailer


[恋空]主题曲


[恋空]插曲


Synoposis
2000年夏天，极其普通的高中一年级女学生美嘉，因为机缘巧合认识了高大帅气的同级生弘树并开始和他交往。至今为止还没谈过恋爱的美嘉很快就与弘树坠入爱河。
但是，美好的恋情才刚开始，一个意想不到的不幸遭遇就向美嘉袭来……还好，弘树的爱情支持着美嘉，也渐渐治愈了美嘉心里的伤痕，两个人的心靠得更近了。可就在这时，两人又得到一个惊人的消息：美嘉怀上了弘树的孩子！听到这个消息的弘树笑着对美嘉说：“那就给我生个孩子吧！”
上天似乎对他们特别不公平，约好了要一起抚养孩子的两个人，在平安夜遭遇了又一场不幸。这次不幸让美嘉和弘树的羁绊越来越深……
然而，越过重重阻碍、发誓要永远在一起的两人，却在高中2年级的春天，因为弘树的突然告别而中断了这份爱情。
第一次失恋的痛苦深深地刺伤了美嘉的心。为了切断对弘树的思念，美嘉开始和爱慕自己的大学生优交往。优的温柔体贴让美嘉的心安静下来，觉得就这样和优平静的交往也不错。可就在美嘉进入大学后的第一个平安夜，却发现了一个意想不到的事实。那是弘树一直没有告诉美嘉的秘密……

插曲

有些时候，明知道只是一首插曲， 但仍然希望唱的全心全力。
因为。。。 那是为你唱的。。。
不管你会不会欣赏
插曲唱完了， 也是时候我应该走开了。。。
离开后，
你是否会想念这首插曲。。。？

那些日子 林宥嘉

简单。快乐

看着学弟学妹在田径无忧无虑的奔驰着
我怀念当初的简单
如果不快乐是成长的代价
我想拥有那一些些的单纯
简简单单的过生活
很开心我能心中毫无芥蒂的面对你
能简简单单的面对着你
我不曾对现在的结果有任何遗憾
我明白做朋友是一辈子的事
所以这样的结果也不坏啊？！
我已放下了
真的放下了
现在的我终于的简简单单面对着你
这样的简单
这样的单纯
这样的我
现在是快乐的。。。

守望麥田

內心深處
我只希望她會看見
我守護她的那片心情
像麥天裡隨著風有時伏倒有時飛揚的麥繐
那篇金黃色的浪濤
不論是起是落
都只為了她微風一樣的笑容


太子

forget...

I thought everything will be over... it should be over...
but i still feel it... sense of jealousy... sense of unhappiness...
gotten a bit tipsy but i still feel it...
i thought i'm strong but i'm afraid i'm not...
the aching feeling remains... it seems that it does not wear off...
every breathe that i take.... the pain remains...
i still enjoy the moments that i spend with you...
there is nothing for me to fear on...
coz i know that when you are around... i'm well-protected though your love for me is not what i'm hoping for...

sometimes, i'm just wondering whether i have a choice in my life...
What will i do if i'm not an occupational therapist?
Will i be happier and less stressful in my career?
a lot of thoughts is running around...
shit..
I know one day I will be forced to leave under some circumstances...
will my life be that satisfying as ever?
will i really get to do things that i like?
I know it is nice to dress nicely doing a office work...
all days staying in the office enjoying the air con...
is this wat i want wat i like?

Overview of 2007

2007, a year of unexpected, and emotional struggle
A lot of things have happened, and most caught me off guard..
2007 is a year which I felt lost and hoping to holding onto anything that come
A year which I realised that hard work and effort do not lead to recognition
A year which I felt the ideal is only a delusion
A year which I experienced a lot of emotional struggle and lost of directions...
A year which I do not what I really want in fact
All the things that happened had made me grow in a way...
Yes.. I can say that I'm braver and mature than previous...
but trying to perserve the child-like nature...
I know what I want now in terms of relationship...
I'm still looking forward to it... but just let the nature take its course...
What will come will definitely come
I have a clearer idea of what I hope to achieve in my work and study
and I believe that I will strive towards it...
I know it's hard to do well in both when I only have time for only 1...
But things will work out by its own..,
and I know that I will have utmost support from my friends...

2008 will be a better year for me...
Though I have nothing much to achieve
but definitely a better sense of direction to follow...

People I'm glad to have you around during my low times...
but I hope that you will be around during my high times...

周杰伦 - 彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

I'm glad to make such a decision today...
Yes I'm sadz in a way bcoz.. I'm sort of rejected...
well it's a one-sided affair... This ending is sort of expected...
But I think i shld give myself a gd pat on my shoulder coz I'm brave enough to face all things...
At least I feel relieved...
At least I dun feel headless anymore...
At least I've tried and I know I will not regret...
At least I know I can let go..
Sadness is just a part and parcel of the grieving process..
I think i will come out of it...
It's a learning process...
Learning how to pick self up when we fall..
A process to know that this friendship is being treasured by both parties
A process to know that how strong we can be...


There are 4 persons we need to find in our life...
The first one is self..
The second one is a person we love most
The third one is a person who love us most
and lastly one who can spend the rest of our life with...

I'm still looking for 2nd, 3rd and 4th.. hopefully they are the same person..
And i hope you guys will be able to find yours too...
I know it's difficult but please be patience..
The best yet to come...


Someone told me abt this theory today...
The Mr right should consists of the following:
- able to make you laugh when you are sadz
- you feel happy when he is happy
- you feel sad when he is sadz...

I hope you will be able to feel for the theory too..

The sky will be clearer than tmr.. :)

林宥嘉

那首歌


我爱的人


你把我灌醉


背影


三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
He......
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

escapist?

I get fatigue easily recently...
seems that I dont have some energy left for other things...
I'm tired of pulling the corners of my lips up when I feel like crying...
hidding at one corner and juz to let out my feelings
but i cant... I really cant to so...
Disappointment has occupied my entire emotion and well being...
Shld have believed that it's an avoidance an escapism...
Shldnt have believed that the mist will be clear.. things will be fine.. and I will face it with my brave side...
I feel like sleeping away all my unhappiness and worries...
but it does not work... every morning i wake up such feelings still exist...
It's growing... it's magnifying... It feels more than what I've experienced last May...
Maybe I shld continue to cuddle myself in bed to avoid such feelings...

我怀念当初在海边画画的日子
人好像 无时无刻
一辈子都在后悔
一辈子都在。。。
后知后觉以后领悟
我曾错过。。。
曾经遗憾一些事情
再来 用这遗憾
来完成自己的画
希望每一个人
都可以珍惜自己身边的人
就像蓝天永远包容着白云
就算晴时多云偶阵雨
天晴之后 这是会有着彩虹

雨过天晴的晚上
我看到满天繁星
微风吹过 呼唤着珍惜
我不想再退缩
不想再躲在墙角
我想好好地为自己努力
想好好面对的自己

...

feeling a bit tired regarding wat's going on in the surroundings...
i'm tired of all the guessing games..
tired of taking on a angelic role.. how i wish i'm a devil in nature..
i'm tired of waiting..
tired of putting up a false front..
someone told me to grit my teeth and soldier on..
do i still have the energy and courage...
i know i'm hiding...
trying to keep a distance but yet looking forward to all the meetings...
sigh.. wat a conflicting me..

A letter to U

My dear friend,

I'm just a line away, please share your burden with me when you need a listening ear
The load is not the heavy that all because i'm here to share with you
I'm always here to hold you tight, please dont let go yourself?
It's sad to know that you are not happy, it hurt me to see you suffering
If there is anything that i can do to make you happy, please let me know..
You hold an important place in my heart, and i will never forgo our friendship
Remember I'm always at your side giving all the support you need,
Please dont give up, my dear friend
I'm always here for you...

x|n