less than 5hrs i'll be having audition liao.kinda feeling nervous now. well i juz can't help it even though i have some experience in joining some small scaled singing competition before but that was in sch. and somemore this time ard the criteria will be stricter and there will be hundreds over participants... (to me quite big scaled leh..) Goosh.. juz by thinking of this, my heart pumps even harder now.
frankly speaking, even though i seems to be quite ai xian, i do suffer from stage fright.. and it kinda worsen by years. i still remember the first time i went on stage for my 1st singing competition final in school. i sang " Xin bu Liao qing" tt time. the 1st half of the song was a disaster coz my voice was trembling and some of the keys i couldn't reach. luckily seeing my classmates at the audience seats cheering for me.. at least i regained some confidence and the rest of the song i did it well and gd.
based on my memory the worst stage firght i experienced was during my drama nite performance during J2. that was really terrible.. i remembered 2 hrs before the performance i had a very terrible breakdown. i was crying crying nonstop alone at one wuloo corner in the school... nxt during the "kai sheng" session with my teacher-in-charge, i juz felt fatigue and had a veir bad diarrhea. and i oso suffer frm dyspnea and keeping on puking.. all these stopped mi frm having a gd performance tt nite.. din meet the normal "level" i had always..
well wat will happen today? i oso dunnoe.. kinda quite scary to go alone... hoping that there will be someone accompanying me and give me some support but based on my character and upbringing i dun really wanna trouble ppl and i dun wish to be seen as mafan. can i be strong? i dunnoe.. i wanna be strong! but can i? why am i always putting a brave front in front of ppl?
