Tuesday, September 28, 2004

A life of an occupational therapy student

Had a pretty 'interesting' lecture talking about issues regarding the mid semester evaluation today..[erm.. i think it was more like a confidence boosting session run by the lecturer] ha ha... kinda expected tt he wasn't surprised by the negative thoughts tt r downcasting us but i was rather SURPRISED that he thinks highly on us... 'hardworking batch ever seen, juz dun worry, most of u will definitely pass the exams'...i really wonder.. are all these really come frm the bottom of his heart or juz he is making use of his psychology knowledge to bring our anxiety level down... sighz personally i dun think im hardworking esp when my entire mind is giving 5566 all my attention.. well u can't blame mi for this when it's a form of escape frm reality for mi...

sometimes i really admire the art of boasting this lecturer had, always tries to show off his abilities and also not forgetting to compliment himself indirectly while put in effort to bring up out confidence... but indeed i think he was quite a gd therapist, am i rite pals?? quite clear-minded... can i be like him? well i think it's really need some experience..

i remember he mentioned about the main ingredients that made up a gd therapist today are resilence, confidence and positive thoughts. and indeed i need to admit tt the course, which was originally meant to be 3 1/2yrs but being squeezed into a 3yr course, is really pushing us to a limit that i almost gg to breakdown, juz to make us be more resilent. but also making us to cut down our social life.. sometimes i really feel tt cutting social life issues due to heavy sch work are contradicting some of the OT outcomes for our clients: care for others, possess gd socialization skills, community mobility, isn't it? mugging and mugging all day really limit the above tt i have mentioned to my dearest future OT collegues, and i really find tt i am sorting of drifting away frm my social circle and my JC frenz.... but wat can i do? sighz (-ve thought)..
hopefully by the end of the entire course, i will really manage to obtain the best ingredients of it.... the journey is still long.....

Friday, September 10, 2004

What women said

FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

FIVE MINUTES
This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so it's an even trade.

NOTHING
This means "something," and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. "Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with "Fine"

GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows! )
This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine"

GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows)
This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care" You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes, followed by"Nothing" and "Fine" and she will talk to you in about "Five Minutes"when she cools off.

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

SOFT SIGH
Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. "Soft Sighs" mean that
she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

THAT'S OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow."

GO AHEAD!
At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.

PLEASE DO
This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn't get a "That's Okay"

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you're welcome.

THANKS A LOT
This is much different from "Thanks." A woman will say, "Thanks A Lot" when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the

"Loud Sigh."Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the "Loud Sigh," as she will only tell you "Nothing"

Sunday, September 05, 2004

security

at any pt in my life, i do spend some quiet moment in the middle of the night doing some self-reflection.. n i realise tt security is something i seriously need in my life... often i do feel tt im all alone at a tip of the tower falling n no one is there for mi to fall back...

often i felt tt my presence is kinda redundant as i do appear quite invisible to the rest..my presence is not always being felt and im tired to be so irritating trying to get attention frm others... y can't i be myself...all i need is to have someone in my life to acknowledge my presence.. is this too demanding.. i guess it is demanding..

recently i keep on having this mindset of getting away.. runaway..i guess even i disappear suddenly out of their lives, no one will realise it or bother to find mi as my presence is not significant to them...

???

it has been almost a mth tt i blogged...every1 thinks tt im too busy to blog but it's not true... i was online everyday but i juz refuse to blog. reason veri simple: coz i dunnoe wat to write especially when i had created a mess out of my life tt i dunnoe how i can settle in... this havoc doesn't allow me to really settle down n concentrate in my studies, all i can do it to avoid avoid avoid...i noe i'm in my denial mode...n i noe tt it's not a solution for my problems but currently im not ready to face them and it's the best solution tt i can think of..

sometime i really hope tt i can transform myself into a bimbo who doesnt need to use much of the brain cells and can jus let the neurons died.. i do feel tt bimbo r quite carefree coz they dun think much n worry tt much as their mindset r veri simple n straightforward...i getting quite tired of myself... i hate myself being so jing ming.. being jing ming has become a burden in my life.. isolating my life..but wat can i do....