Overview of 2007

2007, a year of unexpected, and emotional struggle
A lot of things have happened, and most caught me off guard..
2007 is a year which I felt lost and hoping to holding onto anything that come
A year which I realised that hard work and effort do not lead to recognition
A year which I felt the ideal is only a delusion
A year which I experienced a lot of emotional struggle and lost of directions...
A year which I do not what I really want in fact
All the things that happened had made me grow in a way...
Yes.. I can say that I'm braver and mature than previous...
but trying to perserve the child-like nature...
I know what I want now in terms of relationship...
I'm still looking forward to it... but just let the nature take its course...
What will come will definitely come
I have a clearer idea of what I hope to achieve in my work and study
and I believe that I will strive towards it...
I know it's hard to do well in both when I only have time for only 1...
But things will work out by its own..,
and I know that I will have utmost support from my friends...

2008 will be a better year for me...
Though I have nothing much to achieve
but definitely a better sense of direction to follow...

People I'm glad to have you around during my low times...
but I hope that you will be around during my high times...

周杰伦 - 彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

I'm glad to make such a decision today...
Yes I'm sadz in a way bcoz.. I'm sort of rejected...
well it's a one-sided affair... This ending is sort of expected...
But I think i shld give myself a gd pat on my shoulder coz I'm brave enough to face all things...
At least I feel relieved...
At least I dun feel headless anymore...
At least I've tried and I know I will not regret...
At least I know I can let go..
Sadness is just a part and parcel of the grieving process..
I think i will come out of it...
It's a learning process...
Learning how to pick self up when we fall..
A process to know that this friendship is being treasured by both parties
A process to know that how strong we can be...


There are 4 persons we need to find in our life...
The first one is self..
The second one is a person we love most
The third one is a person who love us most
and lastly one who can spend the rest of our life with...

I'm still looking for 2nd, 3rd and 4th.. hopefully they are the same person..
And i hope you guys will be able to find yours too...
I know it's difficult but please be patience..
The best yet to come...


Someone told me abt this theory today...
The Mr right should consists of the following:
- able to make you laugh when you are sadz
- you feel happy when he is happy
- you feel sad when he is sadz...

I hope you will be able to feel for the theory too..

The sky will be clearer than tmr.. :)

林宥嘉

那首歌


我爱的人


你把我灌醉


背影


三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
He......
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

escapist?

I get fatigue easily recently...
seems that I dont have some energy left for other things...
I'm tired of pulling the corners of my lips up when I feel like crying...
hidding at one corner and juz to let out my feelings
but i cant... I really cant to so...
Disappointment has occupied my entire emotion and well being...
Shld have believed that it's an avoidance an escapism...
Shldnt have believed that the mist will be clear.. things will be fine.. and I will face it with my brave side...
I feel like sleeping away all my unhappiness and worries...
but it does not work... every morning i wake up such feelings still exist...
It's growing... it's magnifying... It feels more than what I've experienced last May...
Maybe I shld continue to cuddle myself in bed to avoid such feelings...

我怀念当初在海边画画的日子
人好像 无时无刻
一辈子都在后悔
一辈子都在。。。
后知后觉以后领悟
我曾错过。。。
曾经遗憾一些事情
再来 用这遗憾
来完成自己的画
希望每一个人
都可以珍惜自己身边的人
就像蓝天永远包容着白云
就算晴时多云偶阵雨
天晴之后 这是会有着彩虹

雨过天晴的晚上
我看到满天繁星
微风吹过 呼唤着珍惜
我不想再退缩
不想再躲在墙角
我想好好地为自己努力
想好好面对的自己

...

feeling a bit tired regarding wat's going on in the surroundings...
i'm tired of all the guessing games..
tired of taking on a angelic role.. how i wish i'm a devil in nature..
i'm tired of waiting..
tired of putting up a false front..
someone told me to grit my teeth and soldier on..
do i still have the energy and courage...
i know i'm hiding...
trying to keep a distance but yet looking forward to all the meetings...
sigh.. wat a conflicting me..

A letter to U

My dear friend,

I'm just a line away, please share your burden with me when you need a listening ear
The load is not the heavy that all because i'm here to share with you
I'm always here to hold you tight, please dont let go yourself?
It's sad to know that you are not happy, it hurt me to see you suffering
If there is anything that i can do to make you happy, please let me know..
You hold an important place in my heart, and i will never forgo our friendship
Remember I'm always at your side giving all the support you need,
Please dont give up, my dear friend
I'm always here for you...

x|n