forget...

I thought everything will be over... it should be over...
but i still feel it... sense of jealousy... sense of unhappiness...
gotten a bit tipsy but i still feel it...
i thought i'm strong but i'm afraid i'm not...
the aching feeling remains... it seems that it does not wear off...
every breathe that i take.... the pain remains...
i still enjoy the moments that i spend with you...
there is nothing for me to fear on...
coz i know that when you are around... i'm well-protected though your love for me is not what i'm hoping for...

sometimes, i'm just wondering whether i have a choice in my life...
What will i do if i'm not an occupational therapist?
Will i be happier and less stressful in my career?
a lot of thoughts is running around...
shit..
I know one day I will be forced to leave under some circumstances...
will my life be that satisfying as ever?
will i really get to do things that i like?
I know it is nice to dress nicely doing a office work...
all days staying in the office enjoying the air con...
is this wat i want wat i like?