Sunday, October 28, 2007

dreaming of you

I've dreamt of you last night
A sweet and bitter dream to me
I wonder you have tasted it
Wonder you have the same dream as mine
but I'm certain that your dream doesnt cast me as the main role
maybe a supporting role which I may not appreciate
I'm certain that my dream will not turn to reality
And, I'm certain that it's just a dream
A dream that reminded me to surrender to the reality
A dream that made me tear when I woke up
I will support your decision
I hope that it's a right one
I hope the best for you
but I still hope to keep you in my dream

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

喜欢。习惯

喜欢与习惯
常常只有一线的距离
当感情转淡了
喜欢或许已变成了习惯
但难以察觉
因为每个人常常会把这两个感觉混淆
而听不见真真的感觉

喜欢一个人是发指内心的一种真真的感觉
而习惯某个人像是一种毒瘾,一种依赖
戒也戒不掉, 而迷失的自己
蒙蔽的真心

Sunday, October 14, 2007

随笔 for FIR 需要你的爱

我看见了你的贴心与用心
你是否看见了我的真心与耐心
我在等待
一直在等待
等待你听见自己心里的话的那一天

Sunday, October 07, 2007

I love my job...

Whenever I started to feel that I'm losing my grip, there will be something that reaffirm my values and beliefs. I need to admit that as a healthcare professional, we need to be emotionally strong and learn to empathize others. Enablement and empowerment are the key things that we should ultimately pass on to our patients. I always feel that I've not been doing enough for my patients and my passion in my work was shaken by certain events happened. Yesterday, my patient wrote a card for me.

"I wan to tell you "Thank You"
But it doesn't seem enough.
Words don't seem sufficient.
I appreciate your kindness
more than words can say.
You're special because
you seemed to always make my day
with your cheerfulness and laughter.
Really appreicate everything you had done.
Words can say so little when someone had done so much."


This message may mean nothing to others, but it means a lot to me. It rekindles my passion as a therapist, reaffirms my beliefs in my care. To me, a patient is not just a patient, but also a mentor in my life experience.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

向日葵

悲伤从不属于向日葵
不管也有多黑
向日葵总是不断的找寻太阳
希望让自己快乐
而且把阳光带给大家

是非题

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

down 2

I think everyone is thinking that i'm feeling better. but the truth is I'm not.. getting a bit teary and worried with my partial tear in knee ligament which the dr wan to treat it conservatively to see whether there is any improvement with intramuscular injection, if not a scope with a KIV operatin may be needed. this means that i might not be a inpatient therapist anymore. the injection was very painful that my entire body was tensed up. post jab was also a misery because i cant flex my knee well and i feel more pain... i have a urge to call but i'm juz a nobody...Seems like i having bad luck.. i think i need to get an amulet for myself too..

down...1

out of the sudden, i feel like telling someone a lot of things: my feelings towards the person, and the incident and my views. but i have chosen to stop myself from doing so. I'm feeling very uncertain towards wat has been happening among/ between/ to us. I'm hesitated to the truth, and i'm holding myself back. I dont have the courage to say wat i intend to. ALl i can do is stayed extremely calm listening to the narration of the recent events, although i am not! I'm not giving any stress to anyone but towards myself.