曾经听过一句话：“失去燈火之後不必慌亂，你還可以看見滿天繁星”。。。
要加油！！！
因为當你跌落谷底時，別灰心，至少接下來你每跨出的一步都是向上的。。 =）
i'm learning too..

如果我有一个愿望
我希望我周遭朋友都幸福、快乐
不要再被情所伤。。。。

如果我有这个能力就好了。。。。
幸福快点来找他们

我不开心。。。。
那又怎样？
日子还是一天天的过
时间不会因为你不开心而停止转动。。。

坦白面對自己的感受，不是一件丟臉的事

我想回到的当初的那个我。。。
简简单单拥有着那快乐
如果没有那些种种的事
我或许不会成长
但最起码。。。
我是快乐的
无忧的
不必伪装
来证明我很好。。。
我好累。。。

thank you for calling to check on me today...
I know you are very concern about me being alone overseas... and my health...
I need to admit that I'm touched by your act of kindness...
But I need to apologise if I have hurt you too...
You said that I can lean onto you at times of need...
and you are upset for not being there for me previously... and you want to make up for it...
but is there a need to make up?
I dont think so...
It is just a phase of life to me.. and I need to learn it well...
and it is just not the right time for us to talk about anything....
I need a little peace.. and I hope you can understand....

""

你曾有过心痛的感觉吗？
心被勒著。。。
无法跳动。。。
闷闷的左胸好像有一个洞
整个人空空的。。。
没有感觉
没有知觉
只想躲在一个角落
把那个痛释放出来
把那个门好好关上。。。

想家

不知为何
今天的我特别想家
在gym 听到像一般新加坡人的谈话
感觉好亲切。。。
好像问他们是否是新加坡人。。。

something i looked at every night... reflecting reflecting....

emo-ing

0110hr at hong kong...
my 1st wkend at my apartment...
have a stack of notes lying on my desk but i yet to have the motivation to read them...
meeting my prof next week.. but i yet to read the things he asked me too...
i need to admit... my mind is not with me...
i cant focus...
i watched 4 movies in a row since evening...
staring at the nightview in front of me
chose to wash my clothes which i bought ytd
had a glass of warm milk...
but i juz cant sleep..
my mind is wandering ard...
flashbacks keep haunting me for the whole day...
everything seems to be a nightmare...
even though i'm back at home...
i know i need to let go the past...
forgive myself...
but the more i tried, the more flashbacks and emotions hit...
why can i forgive him for the things he done... even though he had hurt me to the max... but not myself...
i need to get going....