a big hug to me which i think i deserved it..
an applaud for myself for putting up such a gd show..
all the laughter and jokes that i cracked for the past week..
i really need to start to admire myself..
again i'm gg back to self in 2002
but now i'm facing it all by myself...
my closest friends are not ard with me... coz they din noe..
others think i'm fine.. yes i'm fine when i'm in a crowd
am i really fine with i'm in the crowd.. the feeling that i asked xuanhong previously was there [a sense of loneliness even though with company]
what my analysis is right... i nv let others to really enter my inner world...
am i really fine??? no i NOT... i need time... i need time to hide.. i need time to let to embrace the remaining things i have.. i need time to bury what i've lost..
i need some silent moments pls stop asking me are you alright when you are 100% ready to be with me...
