说好的幸福呢？

你幸福吗？
你这么了？
是累了吗？
还是你已厌倦了争吵。。。
还是你一不在乎我们所拥有的一切
或许我们的爱情已面临选择
但。。。
我们当初说好的幸福呢？
我们是否应该让回忆淡了
各自寻找该有的幸福？
可是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢？

"现在的我，
手里的汤匙正胡乱搅拌着浮在咖啡上的奶晕
金属与马克杯的瓷缘合奏出没章法的敲击声
叮叮叮当， 当叮当叮。
就好像我现在的心情，没有节奏
却很想表达些什么。。。"

http://mistylynn.blogspot.com/2008/06/blog-post_05.html

有一种无奈， 空虚的感觉
为了什么？其实我说不上来。。。
思绪好乱好乱
把我勒的好紧
快要窒息

突然好想你

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於 我自己
只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己
突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下 最痛的紀念品

我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信 那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各算的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息
最怕此生 已經決心自己過 沒有你 卻又突然 聽到你的消息




每當獨自一人時，總會不經意的想起某段回憶，不管是快樂或愉快。  每當見到某個場景，就好像回到了從前，這時連朋友的問候都能引起 心理的激盪!
對於他/她的消息總是想知道卻又害怕再次受傷~

分手

当爱情走到路的死角， 而不能转弯时
分手或许是唯一的出口
不管我们还是否相爱
不管我们有多么的不舍
我们手里牵着的手毕竟不属于自己的
或许小手不能牵着大手一起走。。。

places where i want go...

there are several places i would like to go... anyone keen to go with me..
- Sunset at Hendersen Waves
- Forest adventure at bedok reservoir park
- downtown hub
- Swimming at Jurong swimming complex
- Marina Barrage
- Tree top trail at MacRitchie Reservoir Park

十句值得深思的话：

第一句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人

第二句
付出真心，才会得到真心，
却也可能伤的彻底。。。
保持距离，就能保护自己，
却也注定永远寂寞

第三句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，
才是真正爱你的人

第四句
有时候， 不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重

第五句
冷漠，有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具

第六句
如果我们之前有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第一步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

第七句
为你的难过而快乐的， 是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的， 是朋友
为你的难过而难过的，就是那些该放进心里的人

第八句
就算是believe中间
也藏了一个lie

第九句
真正的好朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起， 就算不说话，而不会感到尴尬

第十句
朋友就是被你看透了，
还能谅解你的人

走音

我以为所做的一切是对的
但却发现所谓的对是我一厢情愿的
所谓的甜蜜开始成了责任
所谓的责任演变成负担
因为负担我们都会变得不开心
渐渐得我们的爱情开始走音




"雖然沒車能接送妳
海角天邊都陪妳去
送了一個小驚喜 忙幾星期
妳眼中 有小星星
妳不開心就抱緊妳
妳有話說我就安靜
為妳改好了個性 磨平脾氣
才曉得默契會飄移
妳的愛情在走音 變成另一個旋律
我還在執迷 拼了命去合音
妳像下雪的表情 是會過完的冬季
我把心 劃成火柴卻看見漆黑的夢境
聽見愛情在走音 痛是太長的抖音
我不愛煽情 但雙唇抖個不停
本來幸福的主題 怎麼唱成了悲劇
選錯歌 唱再用心也無力
對街狂奔大喊愛妳
擁擠捷運流下淚滴
這個瘋狂的自己 來自哪裡
我已經不懂我自己”
黄靖伦[走音]

我是幸福的

有人问我 我幸福吗？
我问他幸福的定义是什么？
对我来说
现在我是幸福的
我满足于现在这简简单单
安安稳稳的感情
我喜欢这被照顾， 照顾人的感觉
我喜欢他让我依靠的感觉
喜欢静静的呆在他身边
傻傻得看着他忙于自己的东西
这是我所谓的幸福
平平淡淡。。。
细水长流的感觉。。。。

带我走

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说等我走
某个角落就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑像天空缠绵雨的汹涌

在你的身后计算的步伐每个背影每个场景

都有发过的梦


带我走到遥远的以后


带走我一个人自转的寂寞

带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫

我不怕带我走
每次我总独自远走
保持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔从此以后
白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨 wo~~
蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏...
带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫 wo~~
带我走

如果没有你

hey我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里
hey我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我应该从何说起
最想说的话我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你
如果没有你
没有过去我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你
我在哪里又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自已
hey我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

你是否也像我一样在想你

平凡又怎么样
优缺点又怎么样
就算对方是个讨人厌的机车鬼
有一千一百万个缺点
但是喜欢一个人的理由
只有一个
就是喜欢

A little note from dear

dar
I guess tmr itself is a very impt day for you and me...
You will be embarking into the new chapter of your life as work commences...
our relationship will also be moving into another phase as well...
to be honest to you...
i am a bit fearful of how things will progress in the future...
I'm fearful of more and more upcoming squabbles as more stress from work set in for both of us...
I know that your working hours are a bit irregular and unexpected...
i will learn to accommodate with it... but please give me some time..
there are a lot of things i need to learn...
i need to learn to get use to the fact that you cant always be there physically for me like you were in the past...
i promise i will let you know if there is any trouble...
I promise i will stay strong and be less wilful and stubborn...
I will keep myself healthy and less tension headache with me...

BUT... dar can you also promise me something...
please dont bottle up ur unhappiness if there is anyway...
remember we are always juz a line away or even diagonally across a long long street...
i believe that we will be fine between both of us if we are willing to work things out

我们一起加油！！！


from Dear...

我是否已住进你的心里。。。
在你心里我是否有这属于我的小小位子

幸福

幸福
让人觉得很温暖、安全
却有一种如履薄冰的恐慌
好像随时会消失

祝願天下有情人終成眷屬

Found this online... for you guys..


人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，每個人的人生都要找到四個人

第一個是自己,

第二個是你最愛的人，

第三個是最愛你的人，

第四個是共度一生的人.

首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。

但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。

你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？

沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你 。

當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？

愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。

換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。

真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，也就是沒有絲毫要求。

畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。

兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!
明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。

許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住：”不可能實現的諾言最動人”

在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。

你呢？找到了第幾個？

茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你？

這是一個朋友轉發給我的信。常常收到類似的讓我繼續轉發的郵件，號稱如果這樣做了就會怎麼樣之類，通常我會把自己作為終點，但是這封信打動了我，因為它說："收到了這封信，是因為有人在默默的祝福，因為你也愛你身邊的一些人"。帶著愛的，一切將如願以償。

你看到了嗎？我在默默的祝福你。

什么是对， 什么是错
谁对 谁错
什么是奢望 什么是渴望
这些我都开始搞不清楚了。。。
我好乱 好慌

Suddenly i start to wonder what i really wan for my life...
In the past, mingjuan and co always think that my life was well planned and organised...
everything that happened since to be on the track...
every single things seemed to be on scheduled
but now to me...
it seems like my life does not seem to be on the track and on schedule..
in the past, I want to get certain things.. i planned and I got them..
but now.. I dont seem to have a control over what is going to happen..
and i start to be a bit fickle-minded...
WHat do I really wan to achieve out of the next 5 years of my life?
What do I really wan for my life...?
marriage? Career? ???
a lot of ? appear but i cant resolve them...
what do i really wan??
Wo Bu ZHi DAo....

右手边

feeling torn...

at times i really feel that i'm not being understand...
the things i want.. things that i hope to
are all not being understood...
ppl please dun think that you all understand me in and out...
when you guys are not..
i'm tired le really tired le..

我们要加油！

我说过我们拥有一种默契
一种神奇的魔力
能接彼此的口中的话
能知道彼此的想法
你同意

你说过我们一起加油 努力
因为我们饶了一圈
才走到这里
才拥有现在
我同意

我一直在往前看
但我必须承认
我需要放开手中的过去
不再受到任何的影响
可是我需要时间
我一直都在努力
一直会很努力

要等我一起跑完这场马拉松。。
加油加油。。。。

selfish

Can one be selfish towards his/ her own feelings?
can one say "no" and stop ppl from doing things of his/ his dislikes?
I guess no one has the right bah..
despite i hate it or dislike it
i will not stop things from happenings
I dun think i should as well...

sound pathetic

the night looks pathetic to me today,..
tension headache pestering me for the entire day..
then followed by the cramps which i seldom have..
had a little disagreement with wc..
now.. my shoulder hit onto something upwards when trying to get something..
severe aching now..
wanting to talk to someone...
seems that no one is available to talk to me..
out of 5 ppl I called
1 cant get thru despite trying for 3 times
dar busy with his othello game
1 sleeping since 9 plus coz he is sick
1 busy baking pizza
last one has no time for me..
sound pathetic..
I juz wan to talk..
but no one there to talk...
decided not to call anymore to prevent further disappointment... and make things sound even worse...
can anyone hear me out there??

Hello.... Hellooo...
HELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO........

丁噹+五月天阿信-走火入魔

counting down to freedon

less than 4 more days, my misery will end.. yes finally that's the end of my life being a part time student and full time healthcare professional. things have been tough for me during the past one and i'm glad that i'm hitting the finishing line. seriously i need to admit that there were many many times that i felt super super drained as all my time was devoted to proj, work, and school and there was no time for myself and the spiritual being in me... BUT it is going to be OVER soon... everything shld go back to normal... regular sleep wake cycle, nuaing and youtubing during weekend... i need to plan my life so that i have a lot of time for myself... personal own time... i guess this is what i need-- personal time. There are a lot of things i wanted to do, and i guess it is time for me to actualise them le..

running low

wat is the nicest thing to do during a rainy day...
erm.. hmm.. good weather to nua in bed till late late..
then y did i wake up at 6plus and then doze off on and off for 2 hr plus..
juz becoz i have many many works to be done BUT i have nil motivation level...
running low... really low...
why do i need to stay at home on a lovely sat to do work instead of play..
i wan to play.. dying to play without any burden..
*sob* i need to buck up... 9 more days to go... the misery and suffering will be over.. i need to write fast and write smart..
i need inspirations.. and motivation...
genie can ya help me?

钻牛角尖

如果我的出现造成你们的痛苦
我的存在不小心伤害了你们
我宁愿离去

你我

我拥有着一个甜蜜的负担
拥有着一个想一直爱你的心
虽然这条路曾经走得很辛苦，
曾经我想过放弃
但两条平行线终于有了交集
庆辛我没有走开
因为有你
我的世界不再黑暗
因为有你
我的世界不再是一个人
我想一直跟你走下去
我不知道永远是什么
但我知道我想继续地抱着你
继续给你呵护

林宥嘉-伯樂

珍惜身边爱你的人

Kylie Minogue and Kermit the Frog - Especially for You

Especially for you
I wanna let you know what I was
Going through
All the time we were apart I thought
Of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same

Especially for you
I wanna tell you I was feeling that
Way too
And if dreams were wings, you
Know
I would have flown to you
To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that I’m next to you

No more dreaming about
Tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I’ve got to say
It’s all because of you

And now were back together,
Together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you

Especially for you
I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me
How I’m certain that our love was
Meant to be
You changed my life
You showed me the way
And now I’m next to you

I’ve waited long enough to find you
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
And I wanna bring out the love
Inside you, oh and
Now were back together, together
I wanna show you my

Feeling tired but thankful..

How i wish i can tkae a nap during lunch break but too bad the environement is just too noisy for me to take a short nap. but anyway i dont think i should complain. well I think it has been a fruitful day so far(at least till now)and i've seen many many cases with the ultimate speed so that i can nua a bit in the afternoon to end the day well. Woke up at 4am and patiently wait for wc to drive me to the airport to send yiqin off t(I think i will miss her badly). I thought that we might tear abit but i guess the presence of wc did make the situation light hearted with his lame and cold jokes and remarks. but thank dear for the efforts.

Dar, Thanks for accompanying me to the airport despite you are not having adequate sleep (poor thing). I know it is hard for you to be alert for the whole day when you dont have a good quality of sleep last night. Thanks for the efforts for borrowing the car from your dad (i know it is hard), and making sure the sunlight doesnt shone on me when i'm taking my nap on the way to work. I'm grateful and thankful to have you with me. It is great to have you with me. And nevertheless my faith is slowly building up.

Is it really true for the Leo...?

LEO the Lion

Leo and Independence:
Leo is very independent but they need something to control and someone to admire them and appreciate them. They are fully capable of being greatly successful on their own but they are much happier if they have an audience and a following of people who look up to them. They would prefer not be alone.

Leo and Friendship:
People are attracted to Leo's zest for life and their warm spirit. They have the ability to lift up one's spirits and provide encouragement when times are rough. Their enthusiasm attracts people, Leos are social butterflies, not because they want to be but because people always naturally gravitate and surround the Leo. Leos are very difficult people to not like, they are usually fairly balanced, realistic people. They never dwell on the past and they will think you are strange if you do. Some Leos might be too caught up in themselves and be very self-centered but they are never too self-absorbed to help anyone who needs it. They pamper their friends and treat them well. A Leo is the ultimate friend. They do not hold a grudge and they are very forgiving. They have respect and understanding of people's differences.

Leo and Business:
Business dealings are easy and successful for Leo, if they are in command and control. This can cause conflict in the workplace should the Leo not be in a position of superiority, but they usually get there eventually thanks to their powerful drive to succeed, in other words, they are excellent leaders because this is their kingdom they have to control, and they do it well. Leo has an amazing ability to get along with people and they work best in a group as opposed to alone. They can be very diplomatic in a group setting and can delegate people well, however Leo will not take orders. They need to give orders but with their enthusiasm and cheerfulness, other people do not have a problem taking orders from a Leo because they are never condescending and they treat others with respect and equality. Leos are full of drama, flair and extravagance and this reflects in the business world. They make an impact, they make a difference in the workplace and help to keep the parts moving in sync and iron out any problems before they arise. If the business fails, that means that Leo fails and they are extremely determined not to fail. Leo is the most extravagant sender of all astrology signs. They will not over do it but they will surround themselves with luxury as much as possible. They will never settle for second best.

Leo Temperament:
Leo loves the new and extraordinary, they despise dull, regular routines and if this is what they are faced with, they will simply create their own drama and excitement. This makes Leo prone to stir up a situation out of nowhere just for something to keep their vivacious temperament satisfied. Leo has an amazing ability to bounce back from any feelings of despair or unfortunate events. They do not like to be unhappy, it hurts their pride so they will take matters into their own hands and make things right again. Leos could come into conflict with other powerhouse type of people who will not take orders and not give an inch, Leos will not budge their opinion, they will understand and accept opinions of others but they do not take well to people to try to impose their beliefs on them. Leo most often have the temperament of a demanding, spoiled child but this is only shown if someone steps on the boundaries of their kingdom. They react this way because of their territoriality.

Leo Deep Inside:
Leos are extremely sensitive but they hide that very well. Leos love praise and flattery, their egos demand respect and adoration. Leo is all about pride. This can cause them to be self-centered but the warmth of the Leo heart keeps it under control. If Leo's audience (otherwise known as their friends) do not provide the needed appreciation, Leo is too proud to ask for it and they will suffer a hurt ego, but no one will ever know and they will suffer in silence. The secret of the Leo is that they need to be needed.

Leo in a Nutshell:
Leo is the lion, this well suited symbol represents Leo very well. They possess a kingdom which they protest and cherish. The are high esteemed, honorable and very devoted to themselves in particular! The kingdom could be anything from work to home to a partner, whatever it is, you rule it. Leo is always center stage and full of flair, they enjoy basking in the spotlight. A Leo always makes their presence known. Leo are full of energy that acts like a magnet for other people. Others are attracted to Leo's wit, charm, and what they have to say for they speak of things grand and very interesting. Leo will never settle for second best. They want only the best which can cause lavish excessive spending habits as they enjoy their life of luxury, which is all to easily justified by the grand and magnificent Leo! Public image is very important to Leo, with luxurious possessions and ways of life, this keeps the public image in high standing. They will do whatever it takes to protect their own reputation. Leos are very generous, kind and openhearted people. If a Leo is crossed, they will strike back with force but they are not one to hold a grudge, they easily forgive, forget and move on. Leos are always trying to make things right in the world, they have larger then life emotions and they need to feel like they have accomplished something at the end of the day. They react to situations with action instead of sitting back and thinking about it, they are not impulsive however because they look at the future and consider consequences of their actions.

What it's like to date a Leo Woman:
The first step is to give her praise and adoration. The relationship will never work if she does not receive this from you. Do not look at other women when you are with her, she has to be the only one in your eyes. The thought of competition with other women completely turns her off, for she is marvelous and grand and better then any other woman (in her eyes)! Be prepared however to compete with other men. She attracts men, deliberately or not, because of her dazzling personality. She makes a good partner because she gives undying affection and love and makes you feel really mood about yourself. She is kind and supportive with an adventurous streak, she is always fun to be with. Leo woman will dominate,. But not completely for she still needs the man to lead the way and give her the desired sense of approval, she looks up to her man. Leo woman is perfect for the man who is affectionate and has a strong character but not too controlling. She needs someone who is passionate about everything in their life and who strives for the best in everything, because so does she.

What it's like to date a Leo Man:
The Leo man falls in love easily and it usually does not last. This is because his emotional ideals of a grand and magnificent love affair quickly turn into reality. Leo man needs a woman who is grounded and in-tune with the realities of life so she can help him keep his feet on the ground. He may seem like he is casual and detached about love but this is not the case, he needs adoration and approval and if he receives this, he feels quite passionately inside and will treat her with amazing affection and be a wonderful cheerful companion. The Leo man appears to be a rock solid unemotional king but truthfully, he is very sensitive. He wants a woman who caters to him, not in a demanding way but he thinks he is entitled to this because of how great he is. Leo men are prone to be self-centered but underneath they are gentle and have lots of love to give providing the woman can give him what he wants. Leos get along with just about anyone and just about any type of girl is suited to him. The woman who caters to him and overlooks his faults (he thinks he does not have any) and the woman who does not nag at him will obviously have preference and a chance at a long term relationship. If the relationship lasts, eventually she will have to teach him that he is not the only great thing in the world.

Sex With Leo:
First impressions would tell you that Leo is all about the kinky and novelty, but that is not so. They are deeply sensual and passionate and enjoy posh surroundings, such as candles and scented oils and lots of affectionate physical contact such as massages and rubbing. They like sex to be familiar, not necessarily routine, but they like to know what's going on. This is because Leo always has to be the best and if there is a suggestion or something offered that they have never done before, they would rather pass on the chance then attempt it and be only satisfactory. Leo has mastered the moves he know, so do not be disappointed with the lack of novelty and variety, because Leo is very good at what they can do, they are the best.

Leo most Compatible with: Aries, Sagittarius, Gemini, Libra

Worst Match for Leo: Scorpio

原谅我

请不要分了以後还记得 亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我 爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手
请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口 好让你离开我
请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活
请不要分了以後还记得 亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我 爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手
请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口 好让你离开我
请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活
爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱
原谅我 必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流 我怕说不出口
原谅我 没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我 爱原来要舍得
我 难过
我 才懂

For the Leo to know the Cancer better...

CANCER the Crab

Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.

Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.

Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.

Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.

Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.

Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.

What it's like to date a Cancer Woman:
The Cancer woman is a very sensual woman with deep emotions and passion brewing underneath the exterior. To reach these will require time, patience and tenderness. Do not expect to have her open up to you right away and jump into a relationship. She will not make the first move and will not be forward with you, you have to do all the work. Do not try to lead her on because Cancer woman is very in-tune with a persons motivations and she will see right through you. Trust is the single most important thing to Cancer. If you ever betray her trust, you might as well move on. She needs love and security. Cancer is the perfect woman for the man who loves to sweep a woman off her feet with romance. She is sensual, sweet and flirty and you two will engage in a gentle, flirtatious dance together while the relationship builds. Once there is a solid, secure foundation, the richness of the relationship will emerge. She is old fashioned, feminine and sensual and patient, if you are the man who can give her what she wants, a relationship with a Cancer woman is wholesome and rewarding and can last a lifetime.

What it's like to date a Cancer Man:
The Cancer man will not be direct with you. He will approach you cautiously and slowly. He will be very romantic and flirty and attempt to court you and win your heart with lavish gifts and attention. The reason he will never be direct with you is that he has a strong underlying fear of rejection. Of you are interested in a Cancer man, you will probably have to make the first move and ask him on a date. He falls in love easily and will make you his whole world. Once you "belong to him", he will hold on to you and can become quite jealous and possessive. This is because he is worried he will lose you to another man and that would crush his spirit. He needs you to be loyal and faithful for he is the same, in a strong and close relationship, Cancer men are the most loyal of the astrology signs. They make excellent lovers for the tender woman who loves romance and being swept off her feet. Cancer is very affectionate and thrives on holding hands all the time, and constant physical contact as he absorbs the situation and experiences with his feelings. The cancer man is all about feeling. He might not show it however and might portray a calm and cool exterior but underneath, he feels deeply and intensely. Cancer men are easily offended so do not jokingly make fun of them for they will take offense and get hurt, but once again, this will not be known to you. He will simply sulk on his own while he tries to figure out and dissect what you said. Cancer men are excellent male protectors, they are like the knight in shining armor. If you are the kind of woman that likes being looked after and cared for, and loves affection and devotion, this romantic, sensual man is perfect for you.

Sex With Cancer:
Cancer is very physical. Expect sex with Cancer to be a fully encompassing sexual experience. Lots of tender foreplay, massages afterwards, candles lit by the bedside, soft music in the background, delicious scented potpourri, everything to appeal to all senses. It will be delicate and passionate and an experience you won't soon forget. To not expect too much novelty and experimentation because Cancer is a very conservative sign. Some Cancer people might be willing to try something new but they will never be the ones to suggest it, you have to or it will never happen. They might go along with your idea because they do enjoy new experiences. Make them always feel safe and secure when trying anything new and they might love it and incorporate it into your regular sex life.

Cancer most Compatible with: Scorpio, Taurus, Virgo, Pisces

Worst Match for Cancer: Aries

把自己捆在一个角落
我的世界顿时变得黑暗
空气变的稀薄
心中的恐慌与害怕不断地涌上
眼中的泪水已无法隐藏
我需要一个拥抱
一个真真实实的拥抱
一个实实在在的拥抱
来证明我的存在
来赶走心中的不安

原来我不是想像重那么坚强的一个人

眼淚笑了

害怕

因为拥有了曾经以为不可能的东西
我开始害怕失去
失去手中紧握得一切
我以为我会很洒脱
但我想这是不可能了
因为我在乎

如果真的有这一天
我想我会学着勇敢
命令眼泪不许失控
勇敢的站着找回光和热

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

因为你是过客因为路有些曲折

是美的

因为有你

我的世界出现了绚烂的烟火

Interesting blog to explore

http://roomfulloffun.blogspot.com

It's Dinner time....

Heading towards Amk Hub to get our ingredients for the dinner.... Mr Koh, dont peep... concentrate on your driving....

Happy shopping at the big big Extra hypermarket...

Mr Koh focusing in his cooking...

Garlic Bread without the use of the toaster... Mr. Koh did it in the conventional way which I didnt even know previously... Looked burnt but tasted good!! :)

A feast prepared by Mr Koh. Tomate-based spaghetti, mushrooms corn soup and garlic bread

Yummy... Mr Koh.. when will be our next feast..?

faith

i think i need more faith in certain things...
soemthing that others can help but only me...

摄影。心情

我喜欢摄影
虽然我不是很懂得
但我还是很喜欢它
我喜欢透过摄影机来看这个世界
喜欢用心来拍摄
喜欢透过镜框捕捉下当下的心情
我总觉得透过镜框捕捉下来的画面是敏锐、敏感的
在镜头地下每个人都是赤裸裸， 无法隐藏
它能捕捉下当时的气氛、人的情感、还有人与人的暗号
只要你用心你就能感受到这一切。。。



你能感受到我想表达的一切吗？

延续。幸福

现在的我是贪心的
我希望我所拥有的幸福会一直延续下去
想一直被你疼
想一直拥有着被呵护的感觉

I'll be there

For you...

如果可以。。。我想

如果可以。。。 我想一直静静看着你
如果可以。。。 我想一直守候在你身边
如果可以。。。 我想一直依赖着你
如果可以。。。 我想一直对着你撒娇
如果现在的一切是个梦
如果可以。。。 我想继续做这个梦。。 。
一直直沉睡不醒。。。
一直沉睡下去
因为这一切是美的
因为这一切是甜蜜的

平行线 JS

[歌詞] 平行線~JS

詞/曲：JS

哥：我聽見　她說出那句似曾相識的再見
　　才發現愛情又再次回到原點　轉眼臺北是冬天

妹：想忘卻　等待著未知愛情那種不確定的感覺
　　也許在東京的地鐵　隱藏著註定的遇見

合：不過是暫時擱淺　受過的傷終能復原
　　找新的起點　從今天 不想再把路繞遠
卻總是擦肩　總是心中描繪的畫面
　　遇不上一個對的人實現　怎麼找到永遠

　　卻總是忽略　忽略身邊平凡的一切
　　去追逐不切實際的明天　繼續和真愛走在平行線

哥：黑夜有多黑

妹：我現在才體會

合：完美其實不完美　也許我　永遠無法從愛裏畢業　只能把回憶封箱做紀念

傻傻

跟你在一起
我想我是幸福的
我拥有着小小的幸福
跟你在一起的每一分钟
我都在洋溢着幸福的笑脸
喜欢看着你为我担心，紧张的脸
喜欢看着你不停亏我的脸
我喜欢对着你撒娇
我喜欢手里有你的温度
我在学习满足
学习依赖着你
学习习惯我们这暧昧的关系。。。
我想一直这样的傻傻的喜欢着你。。。

Love remains the same

A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like a lunar landing
Make me want to run till I find you
Shut the world away from here, drift to you, you're all I hear
Everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending, truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had any more to give
Pushing me so far here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
Everything will change, love remains the same

Find a place where we escape
Take you with me for a space
A city bus that sounds just like a fridge
Walk the streets through seven bars
I had to find just out where you are
The faces seen to blur they're all the same

Half the time the world is ending, truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had any more to give
You're pushing me so far here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
Everything will change, love remains the same

So much more to say, so much to be done
Don't you trick me out, we shall overcome
Cause our love stays ablaze

We should have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

Half the time the world is ending, truth is I am done pretending
Too much time to love defending, you and I are done pretending

I never thought that I had any more to give
You're pushing me so far here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
Everything will change, everything will change

Oh, I...

This could last forever

Oh, I...

We could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

I remember I miss

I remember I used to look forward for my birthday...
I remember those days that you would buy a cake for me when the rest had forgotten
I remember every year you would prepare steamboat for us to celebrate our birthday together
I remember that you would never want us to buy any presents for you...
I remember that you always get contented with all of us gather together at your place to have the steamboat...
This year it will be my 3rd birthday without your presence
I'm still trying to get use to your absence
I miss the steamboat you prepare and i really miss the slacker's attitude you possess....
Birthday without you feel different
I miss you

acute myelogenous leukemia

"Acute myeloid leukemia (AML), also known as acute myelogenous leukemia, is a cancer of the myeloid line of white blood cells, characterized by the rapid proliferation of abnormal cells which accumulate in the bone marrow and interfere with the production of normal blood cells. AML is the most common acute leukemia affecting adults, and its incidence increases with age.

The symptoms of AML are caused by replacement of normal bone marrow with leukemic cells, resulting in a drop in red blood cells, platelets, and normal white blood cells. These symptoms include fatigue, shortness of breath, easy bruising and bleeding, and increased risk of infection. Although several risk factors for AML have been identified, the specific cause of AML remains unclear. As an acute leukemia, AML progresses rapidly and is typically fatal within weeks or months if left untreated.

The early signs of AML are often non-specific, and may be similar to those of influenza or other common illnesses. Some generalized symptoms include fever, fatigue, weight loss or loss of appetite, shortness of breath with exertion, anemia, easy bruising or bleeding, petechiae (flat, pin-head sized spots under the skin caused by bleeding), bone pain and joint pain and persistent or frequent infections.

Enlargement of the spleen may occur in AML, but it is typically mild and asymptomatic. Lymph node swelling is rare in AML, in contrast to acute lymphoblastic leukemia. The skin is involved about 10% of the time in the form of leukemia cutis. Rarely, Sweet's syndrome, a paraneoplastic inflammation of the skin, can occur with AML.

Some patients with AML may experience swelling of the gums because of infiltration of leukemic cells into the gum tissue. Rarely, the first sign of leukemia may be the development of a solid leukemic mass or tumor outside of the bone marrow, called a chloroma. Occasionally, a person may show no symptoms, and the leukemia may be discovered incidentally during a routine blood test

Acute myeloid leukemia is a potentially curable disease; but only a minority of patients are cured with current therapy. AML is treated initially with chemotherapy aimed at inducing a remission; some patients may go on to receive a hematopoietic stem cell transplant."

Courtesy from Wikipedia

“你对我的好让我不知道该这么办”

抉择

我的心又开始动摇了
在值得与不值得之间
做出选择
我又在害怕
害怕面对后的结果
害怕我所付出的一切
是如此不堪一击
害怕失去我的尊严
害怕失去想爱的勇气
现在的我
好乱好不安
我慌了

黄靖伦

蔡淳佳 - 倒愛

倒愛 - 蔡淳佳
作詞：廖素儀　作曲：王志文

在大樹和腳踝之間
纏繞你的誓言
所以撐著
所以心甘情愿

就算愛得很不安全
顛倒了藍天
至少可以
換個角度來相戀

我以為倒著流眼淚
不經過臉不傷悲
就算看起來受罪
幸福有時候另類

每當我倒著流眼淚
一顆一顆都珍貴
灌溉了愛的滋味
狼狽也覺得美

我懂松綁的自由
卻無力伸出雙手
反正忘了路怎么走
我只能傻傻地守候

过去、遗憾

很多时候在做一些抉择时，
每个人的判断都被过去的种种所影响
但他们是否想过自己曾因过去而有所领悟
别再为过去牵绊住
绑住了自己， 捆住了心中的渴望
别在为了过去的造就现在的遗憾
放开胸怀吧！！

我想你

到底我每天究竟要想你几次？
我不知道。。。
我只知道我现在拥有另类的幸福
一个酸酸甜甜的幸福。。。
我不想被噩梦袭击
击退好不容易决定的立场
我想珍惜这另类的幸福
我想一直拥有着幸福

"现在的我，
手里的汤匙正胡乱搅拌着浮在咖啡上的奶晕
金属与马克杯的瓷缘合奏出没章法的敲击声
叮叮叮当， 当叮当叮。
就好像我现在的心情，没有节奏
却很想表达些什么。。。"

九把刀 [等一个人咖啡]

拔河

期待在和现实拔河
答案或许会在这个拔河比赛揭晓
我不想再退缩
我必须继续勇敢。。。

Wishlist..

It is always this time of the year I'm having a big headache.. as everyone will ask me for my wishlist... Seriously I really dont have anything I need or want desperately... even i have... it will be too expensive and I rather get it on my own...

But I do have a don't want list..
- No voucher
- No bag (i have a lot le)
- No shoes

If you really need me to create a wishlist... here it goes
- A bouquet of flowers (but not from my friends... not any kinds of flowers but something i love...)
- Happiness and laughter for all my friends...
- Accompany from my friends...

So it is rather simple.. but i do know that some are hard to accomplish...
BUt i think you all can do it lah...
*ps i know it is lame but i'm serious*

给某某某

当有一个人愿意成为你的大树时
这一刻，你是幸福的。。。
这一刻，你不必担心外头的天气
因为大树会一直为你挡风遮雨。。。
我相信这棵大树会的，
一定会的
因为我看到它的用心
也看到它的心意
所以。。。
朋友， 你要幸福哟！！

你一定会幸福的！！




两个人看夕阳的感觉好甜蜜。。。

you made my day...

Life can be that simple when one get contented easily...
I'm contented today because of simple things happened...
SMS exchange does have the power to brighten a person's day...
well I guess I can sleep fairly well tonight..
晚安地球人！！

像断了翼的蝴蝶
我在天空不停的盘旋
我在很努力的挥动着翅膀
却一直原地踏步
好想继续飞翔
我想我会慢慢复原的

幸福的风

因为我永远只能一个人生活
孤单的快乐哀愁
偶尔可以伪装潇洒
只有心里慌乱起来自己喝酒
因为你只是一个美丽的偶然
吹淋我不经意降落
谁知道你不同
谁知道你不走
拥抱著我说终于找到了我
你看穿我的轮廓
亲吻我的奋勇
不在乎我曾经的错
如果不是你的款款温柔
还以为真爱只是一个传说
请相信我的承诺
虽然有点笨拙
但我看见幸福的风
如果我把我的手放在背后
愿不愿意牵著一起走
愿不愿意牵著到最后


我想这样牵着你的手， 陪你一起走
这会不会是我一厢情愿的奢望。。。

"愛一個人,是很沒有尊嚴,很沒有尊嚴的,如果那個人不愛你的話"

不管结果如何我想留一点点属于我的尊严。。。

十字路口

我正在人生的十字路口思考
思考着应该往前走、转个弯
还是原地踏步
这条路是否饱含着‘我们’
还是只有孤单的‘我’
或许决定踏上的路
风景并不美丽
但我会好好的品尝它其中的滋味

守望麦田、后续

我对他的守候，
就像守望着迎风的麦田一样，
只要他开心， 我就为他开心，
风来了，
无边无际的麦田便迎风摇曳，
发出沙沙的笑声，
风离去，
我内心那片为他守候的麦田也就无声无息，
感觉不到一点欢喜。。。

现在的我变得很贪心
我否决了当初的决定
希望能和他一起分享所有的喜怒哀乐。。。
现在的我一点都不满足。。。

插曲2

无论过去如何、未来又会怎样，
那一刻是很幸福、甜蜜的，
能让我依赖着他，
就算只是为他唱一段插曲，
我就已经心满意足。。。

但那一刻是否有出现过
那一段插曲是否有机会唱。。。

蒙

没有心情的一天
有一颗想逃的心
或许我的心从来没有决定
决定不爱你
决定把你当成朋友
我以为我可以沉溺在那股简单快乐
那几天发生的事否决了这个想法
那一晚对我来说是一个梦
一个很美的梦
一个我不想醒来的梦
一个让我想不听追逐答案的梦
因为一个梦 一个答案
我遍体鳞伤
我快要窒息了

孤單心事 specially dedicated to u...

雨下在我窗前玻璃也在流眼泪
街上的人都看起来比我幸福一点
用寂寞来测验还是最想要你陪
曾一起走过的夏天我常常会梦见
我猜不到你真正的感觉
思念写成脸上的黑眼圈
有的时候我宁愿你对我坏一点
无法停止幻想我们的永远
爱你是孤单的心事不懂你微笑的意思
只能像一朵向日葵在夜里默默的坚持
爱你是孤单的心事多希望你对我诚实
一直爱着你用我自己的方式
我在你的心里有没有一点特别
就怕你终究没发现我还在你身边
我猜不到你真正的感觉
思念写成脸上的黑眼圈
有的时候我宁愿你对我坏一点
无法停止幻想我们的永远
爱你是孤单的心事不懂你微笑的意思
只能像一朵向日葵在夜里默默的坚持
爱你是孤单的心事多希望你对我诚实
一直爱着你用我自己的方式
爱你是孤单的心事不懂你微笑的意思
只能像一朵向日葵在夜里默默的坚持
爱你是孤单的心事多希望你对我诚实
一直爱着你用我自己的方式


At least this is how i feel now...

I wish I wish I wish

I wish I wish I wish...
It is just a dream...
A bitter and full of anger dreamz...
It should be just a dreamz..
or else those things i believe in are just lies...

简单快乐

The last thing I want to admit is that I just cant take my eyes off you....
you seem to have that power to make me think of you...
for everything you have done... you manage to 牵动着我的思绪
有人问我为什么无法看到别人， 眼睛里只有你。。。
有人问我是否满足于现状。。。
Yes, I'm contented with the current situation...
I guess this is the only way that I can face you in the most relaxing manner...
I have been praying hard that you will be happy and you deserve to have all the happiness in the world...
and I will give you all my blessings when the time comes...
i'm not asking much,... just be with you is sufficient...to me it is a 简单快乐without any burden..
And I believe that right one will come to me in the future...

Closure...

I teared today when my friend was sharing her granny's condition with me...
I'm sorry for this but I just couldnt help it...
I feel for it, and such feelings are so real...
They are something I felt before
Not only once but twice, and I struggled through that period...
I need to admit that I haven had any closures for those events...
I wonder whether I have a chance to do a proper closure...
There are a lot of things which are not within my controls...
especially my thoughts..
but can i do anything?
I dont think so...
My thoughts just choose to remain in the past...

nelgected

being neglected is how i feel like now... not wanting to elaborate further but i just feel that i'm not being valued or included in the group. Yes, I'm busy but doesnt mean that i should not be invited...

recent fav songs...

WOW - I believe in love



深白色2人組 花火



深白色2人組 Cold Silence


JS 我知道你愛我


不愛你-阿爆&Brandy

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "

新谣

Watching S-pop concert brings me a lot of memories that were previously forgotten...
There are a lot of emotions attached to the songs presented...
Although these songs do not belong to my era, I came to know that when I was organising the 新谣节when i was in JC2...
I remember I had a hard time researching on the songs, composer, original singers and backgrounds of the songs,and I was doing alone.... Of course the toughest parts were to select the songs.
If i din remember wrongly this is the songlist that was presented on that day:
- 细水长流
- 邂逅
- 说时以旧
- 你的倒影
- 恋之憩
- 你是我的唯一
- 让夜轻轻落下
- 我们这一班


*i sang this osng with Zhengzhong*




I wonder when will i have the chance to sing these songs with the group that I had that day...

yucky gastristis...

erm.. i think my gastristis started to miss me again..
so i supposed it is coming to re-visit me...
sighz.. nausea and vommitting have became parts and parcels of my life recently...
and there is always a constant stirring feeling in my stomach... yuck..
severe stomachache has waken me from my lovely dreams leaving me fully wake for the rest of the night suffering from the pain...
I have been refraining myself from eating things that i like...
y did it continue to progress.. sighz..
now i guess i just need to have a fever so that i can be diagnosed as gastristis or gastroentristis...

sighz.. i think my nightmare is approaching again...

bye bye good days..

Sakamoto Ryuichi - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence

我以为

我在想你

我以為
想念是因為不習慣
習慣了就不再想念
為何我在想念你呢?
在遠方的你, 過的安好嗎?
是否能感應到我對你的思念...
我好想你!

恋空 Sky of Love

Today I finally found time to catch the jap movie, Sky of love (恋空) which I was so keen to watch when i saw the movie poster. Well it is a typical jap romance story but I do think that it was well-filmed. Other than 心愿 and 夏之雪, 恋空is the recent movie that made me cried... plus a long lasting heartache.

Trailer (long version)


Movie Trailer


[恋空]主题曲


[恋空]插曲


Synoposis
2000年夏天，极其普通的高中一年级女学生美嘉，因为机缘巧合认识了高大帅气的同级生弘树并开始和他交往。至今为止还没谈过恋爱的美嘉很快就与弘树坠入爱河。
但是，美好的恋情才刚开始，一个意想不到的不幸遭遇就向美嘉袭来……还好，弘树的爱情支持着美嘉，也渐渐治愈了美嘉心里的伤痕，两个人的心靠得更近了。可就在这时，两人又得到一个惊人的消息：美嘉怀上了弘树的孩子！听到这个消息的弘树笑着对美嘉说：“那就给我生个孩子吧！”
上天似乎对他们特别不公平，约好了要一起抚养孩子的两个人，在平安夜遭遇了又一场不幸。这次不幸让美嘉和弘树的羁绊越来越深……
然而，越过重重阻碍、发誓要永远在一起的两人，却在高中2年级的春天，因为弘树的突然告别而中断了这份爱情。
第一次失恋的痛苦深深地刺伤了美嘉的心。为了切断对弘树的思念，美嘉开始和爱慕自己的大学生优交往。优的温柔体贴让美嘉的心安静下来，觉得就这样和优平静的交往也不错。可就在美嘉进入大学后的第一个平安夜，却发现了一个意想不到的事实。那是弘树一直没有告诉美嘉的秘密……

插曲

有些时候，明知道只是一首插曲， 但仍然希望唱的全心全力。
因为。。。 那是为你唱的。。。
不管你会不会欣赏
插曲唱完了， 也是时候我应该走开了。。。
离开后，
你是否会想念这首插曲。。。？

那些日子 林宥嘉

简单。快乐

看着学弟学妹在田径无忧无虑的奔驰着
我怀念当初的简单
如果不快乐是成长的代价
我想拥有那一些些的单纯
简简单单的过生活
很开心我能心中毫无芥蒂的面对你
能简简单单的面对着你
我不曾对现在的结果有任何遗憾
我明白做朋友是一辈子的事
所以这样的结果也不坏啊？！
我已放下了
真的放下了
现在的我终于的简简单单面对着你
这样的简单
这样的单纯
这样的我
现在是快乐的。。。

守望麥田

內心深處
我只希望她會看見
我守護她的那片心情
像麥天裡隨著風有時伏倒有時飛揚的麥繐
那篇金黃色的浪濤
不論是起是落
都只為了她微風一樣的笑容


太子

forget...

I thought everything will be over... it should be over...
but i still feel it... sense of jealousy... sense of unhappiness...
gotten a bit tipsy but i still feel it...
i thought i'm strong but i'm afraid i'm not...
the aching feeling remains... it seems that it does not wear off...
every breathe that i take.... the pain remains...
i still enjoy the moments that i spend with you...
there is nothing for me to fear on...
coz i know that when you are around... i'm well-protected though your love for me is not what i'm hoping for...

sometimes, i'm just wondering whether i have a choice in my life...
What will i do if i'm not an occupational therapist?
Will i be happier and less stressful in my career?
a lot of thoughts is running around...
shit..
I know one day I will be forced to leave under some circumstances...
will my life be that satisfying as ever?
will i really get to do things that i like?
I know it is nice to dress nicely doing a office work...
all days staying in the office enjoying the air con...
is this wat i want wat i like?